Confused
So today at the meeting Patty told everyone that I am leaving. And they were all sad, which made me feel weird. I know that everyone at STL was sad when I left, but this is different. I want them to miss me, but I want them to be happy for me too...weird, I know. And there is a part of me that doesn't want to leave, even though I know it's for the best and what I need to do to better myself. This next couple of weeks is going to be really weird here, knowing that I'm leaving and all...
Tonight is my certification at Starbucks and I'm nervous about that. I don't really like the job all that much but I need it and I want to be able to do well at it. It's the making drinks that I'm most worried about, that I will mess them up or Leticia won't think that I'm doing a good enough job at them.
And then there is the tax thing. That somehow I'm either going to have to come up with the money to pay them or appeal to Andy to see if we can file together. Which he will only go for if it means that he will get more money back and that I will let him keep the money. And I'm willing to do that if it means that I don't have to pay. But I think he's back east right now, which means his grandfather died so I'm not going to try to talk to him about it for a while. I'll try and save up as much money as I can till then. Everytime I start to think things will be OK something else happens and I end up taking twice as many steps back as I have forward.
But I love the new house and living with John is great, so there are deffinatly good things in life right now too...
Tonight is my certification at Starbucks and I'm nervous about that. I don't really like the job all that much but I need it and I want to be able to do well at it. It's the making drinks that I'm most worried about, that I will mess them up or Leticia won't think that I'm doing a good enough job at them.
And then there is the tax thing. That somehow I'm either going to have to come up with the money to pay them or appeal to Andy to see if we can file together. Which he will only go for if it means that he will get more money back and that I will let him keep the money. And I'm willing to do that if it means that I don't have to pay. But I think he's back east right now, which means his grandfather died so I'm not going to try to talk to him about it for a while. I'll try and save up as much money as I can till then. Everytime I start to think things will be OK something else happens and I end up taking twice as many steps back as I have forward.
But I love the new house and living with John is great, so there are deffinatly good things in life right now too...