My hands around your throat and I think I hate you...
i'm happy. and i love Katey. cuz fuckin INCUBUS is having a show in Worcester on July 2nd, which happens to be the day before my birthday...so she's treating me to that as my gift. then they have another show in Providence that we might also go to. i'm a happy Nikki right now *happy dance with a spin*. yay man.
anyways, this isn't going to be too long, since my brother needs to get on here fairly soon..plus i need to pick Kenny up from work in a half hour then i'm gonna chill with him for the night. <3 i know, how nice of him, right? heh.
so this weekend was pretty boring...weird but boring. let's see. on Friday night, when i was supposed to see Kenny but he canceled...i talked to Katey so i went to pick her up. we then went to Auburn to visit Tonya at work, then Ed found us there. after that, we were bored, so Katey and i went to pick up Jeremy, then went to Bertone's house. his "girlfriend" was there, and that whole thing was just weird in itself. she can be wicked cool...but at the same time...she was drunk off her ass, in front of her 3-year-old daughter. i don't know dude. but Bertone seems to like her, so whatever makes him happy i guess...i just hope things don't get too fucked up with that. yea. then we went home afterwards.
then on Saturday. well, for starters, my mom and i visited my great grandmother at the nursing home for the first time in ages (well, for me at least). she just had a stroke last week, so she can barely talk. she could really see or hear before that...now she can barely talk. it's so sad too, cuz for the past few years, she would always tell my grandfather that she just "wants God to take her"...cuz honestly, and i know we're all thinking it, what's the point if you can barely function? it was so sad. :( i hope to god i never end up in a nursing home...i feel bad saying it, but they're scary places...and it just further proves that you can't help yourself enough to live, so you need everyone else to do it for you. no. i'd rather die first. Jeremy and i even decided that if we're both still alive by the time we turn 85, we're just gonna kill each other. my great grandmother's 96 years old. 96 years old. i would never want to live that long, and i can't blame her for hating it. blech.
then i saw Katey again that night. we drove to Auburn...again...with Ed this time. it was so bad cuz i drove, and without even thinking about it, i left the car running...with the keys locked in it. luckily, i had my spare key in my wallet so there was no problem. but damn, imagine if i hadn't had that on me? big waste of $15 on gas, lemme tell ya. anyways, then we went back to Ed's house and went home. nothing special. and i've been doing nothing ever since, basically. like i said before, i'm gonna be seeing Kenny soon. which is cool, considering i haven't since *last* Monday :::grumble:::*painintheass*:::grumble::: then i'm probably gonna chill with Jeremy tomorrow, since he has a half day of school and i have...nothing. yep. go me.
we're seeing Tantric and Shinedown in 3 days! whooooeeeee!!! :D