college...and other things
i was up in Point for the past 2 days. woo hoo. that was tons of fun. not really. my brain hurts from all the info they crammed in our heads. so my schedule is kinda cool. i have like 6 music classes (music theory, aural music theory, applied violin/group violin, orchestra, piano...i think thats all of them), english (101...nothing special) and SOPHOMORE german. how the hell does that happen??????? i haven't said a whole sentence in german since the last day of junior year. and you know whats awesome? if i can im going to do pit for the musicals and you get credit for it! it would be so awesome to get something for all that work for once. my advisor is pretty sweet. old but nice. hes the low brass instructor though. yup...pretty sure that doesn't help me that much. hes also my aural theory professor. on to my first conflict with schedules. as of right now i'm not in my piano class because my music theory class and piano 1 are at the same time and the other 2 theory classes are full. so i get the joy of talking to the other 2 professors and i get to beg one of them...until they let me join their class. my group leader for all of our special things was sooo cute! dont worry robbie...hes a 5th year student so im pretty sure hes not going to be hanging out with me.
this is so exciting but at the same time scary. people here hate me enough as it is. how am i supposed to convince people up there that i AM a good person? i met some decent people but i dont think that if i ran into them on campus that they would want to hang out. OMG i ran into some people from Oconto Falls. one i went to school with when i was there and he was in my group but we didnt talk much. he looks like the biggest asshole ever now. the other one went to lena until high school so i didnt know him. i met a football player 2. he was the stereotype football player too. hes on the state football team. the game is on july 15 or 16th. cool i guess. yeah anyway back to what i was writing about. i have this weird feeling that im going to have the same problem at point that i have here. most people talk to me but wont or dont want to hang out. am i really that unlikable? i must be. im going to be that loser who has no friends and that everyone says shit about behind their back. its never going to change. i should just lock myself up somewhere so no one has to pretend to like me. im so sick of it. just tell me why no one ever wants to do anything with me. i really hate this. this is supposed to be the summer to remember and stuff like that and so far its one of the worst because i sit at home all the time. once claire asked me to go get ice cream and go visit corey and that was fun. and of course ive been doing stuff with rob. thats a given. but seriously. he works ALOT. so i really dont do that much with him. i want friends. people who care about me. is that too much to ask?
this is so exciting but at the same time scary. people here hate me enough as it is. how am i supposed to convince people up there that i AM a good person? i met some decent people but i dont think that if i ran into them on campus that they would want to hang out. OMG i ran into some people from Oconto Falls. one i went to school with when i was there and he was in my group but we didnt talk much. he looks like the biggest asshole ever now. the other one went to lena until high school so i didnt know him. i met a football player 2. he was the stereotype football player too. hes on the state football team. the game is on july 15 or 16th. cool i guess. yeah anyway back to what i was writing about. i have this weird feeling that im going to have the same problem at point that i have here. most people talk to me but wont or dont want to hang out. am i really that unlikable? i must be. im going to be that loser who has no friends and that everyone says shit about behind their back. its never going to change. i should just lock myself up somewhere so no one has to pretend to like me. im so sick of it. just tell me why no one ever wants to do anything with me. i really hate this. this is supposed to be the summer to remember and stuff like that and so far its one of the worst because i sit at home all the time. once claire asked me to go get ice cream and go visit corey and that was fun. and of course ive been doing stuff with rob. thats a given. but seriously. he works ALOT. so i really dont do that much with him. i want friends. people who care about me. is that too much to ask?