Letters
This year I decided to write a letter to my parents once a week to let them know how things are going without having to endure a weekly phone call where I get very little input.
My dad thinks they are weird or I am up to something. After the fight between mom and me, I think I am finished with the letter writing even though she says they are okay. That's not true, she said she liked them though I have my doubts.
Yesterday, as I said, I straightened things out with the lawyer. I email my mom and briefly explained I had. She wanted details so I gave her short ones. Then she pushed and I told her how badly she hurt me. She says she loves me more than her own life. If she did, she would try listening once in a while and instead of immediately trying to one up how bad her life is compared to mine or how badly something hurts her more, she might try to be supportive.
Or maybe she does try but I am so worn out and used to her tricks I only hear when she feels sorry for herself. I am not her friend. With a friend there is give and take. She feels that if she gives me money she can take what she wants. I feel used up, unwanted, and unloved by my own parents. Don't even get me started on my dad. I'm not going to try any more.
My dad thinks they are weird or I am up to something. After the fight between mom and me, I think I am finished with the letter writing even though she says they are okay. That's not true, she said she liked them though I have my doubts.
Yesterday, as I said, I straightened things out with the lawyer. I email my mom and briefly explained I had. She wanted details so I gave her short ones. Then she pushed and I told her how badly she hurt me. She says she loves me more than her own life. If she did, she would try listening once in a while and instead of immediately trying to one up how bad her life is compared to mine or how badly something hurts her more, she might try to be supportive.
Or maybe she does try but I am so worn out and used to her tricks I only hear when she feels sorry for herself. I am not her friend. With a friend there is give and take. She feels that if she gives me money she can take what she wants. I feel used up, unwanted, and unloved by my own parents. Don't even get me started on my dad. I'm not going to try any more.