Isn't bribe just another word for love?
OMG! That quote XD It just came out on the Family Guy.
OMG.
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Hee. I'm such a dork.
Anyways, today was decent...School, school....Clarinet camp was fun. Came home, slept...zzzzzzzzz
Went back for band, we had more fun :P More stuff...Tried to go to Starbucks and failed.
Went to work instead, but only towards the end to close. That was fun, only needed to clean. ~_~
Came home...Ah, finally got around to watching my taping of The Big 10 to see a 30 second clip of AFI having a cheap interview (meaning they didn't actually go and interview them, rather sent questions :P). It was cute. Hehe, nerds. And the whole thing about Adam, aww... I totally picture that ^^ Hee "Ho' sick."
Finally caught up with my Deviant Art (yet, didn't really SEE all the artwork, but finally cleared it up!). I will be trying to watch that more diligently, as well as upating regularly, too! :# TRY!
Ah...a time to feel insecure.
I hate this feeling of dissatisfaction. Oh...There is always a handsome man (well, don't go and start any rumors! This is absolutely not specific @_@) that I'd love to picture myself with....Yet, in reality, I know that someone like that would never think of me the same. I am not a beautiful type of girl. I'm not the type guys would find pretty and actually think in passing (for lack of better expression) "I'd tap that." So, in passing I love to see sexy people, but realizing this aspect, just depresses me. Oh, fuck. I hate being this lame chick and all, but its true (straight guys reading this know it!). I hate it, and all, but I don't know how I could seem so beautiful to those I find beautiful. It just doesn't work for me, I guess. I mean...maybe my standards are high, but even with lowered expectations, I don't think I'll get someone to see me that way....
This and I feel fucked up sometimes. I feel so drained. I feel like I can barely handle shit. What the hell? Maybe its because I stop the momentum, thus allowing myself to rest, making it harder to start again. Perhaps...But when I think about this, when I hear it being told to me, I feel like an idiot and loser. Maybe I am, hah. I just, I dunno...But hearing this sort of stuff when I already know it, hurts....I feel as if, I don't know, it upsets me because I ALREADY KNOW and hearing it over makes me feel even worse. I need anger management or something. I dunno.
Well, it was bound to happen sooner or later, this post of self meloncholy. People die constantly of starvation and here I am complaining about not having a boyfriend or something lame like that. Fuck, I'm a bad person ;_; I hate feeling so helpless for people like that, and then being so selfish in my own self wallowing shit.
Fuck me!
....I like that song that's like "Well, I would walk 500 miles and I would walk 500 more" Someone tell me who that's by...
....Mmm...Eve talks of a Powerpuff girls anime...While I'm sure it sucks, still intriguing...
OMG.
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=62643067
Hee. I'm such a dork.
Anyways, today was decent...School, school....Clarinet camp was fun. Came home, slept...zzzzzzzzz
Went back for band, we had more fun :P More stuff...Tried to go to Starbucks and failed.
Went to work instead, but only towards the end to close. That was fun, only needed to clean. ~_~
Came home...Ah, finally got around to watching my taping of The Big 10 to see a 30 second clip of AFI having a cheap interview (meaning they didn't actually go and interview them, rather sent questions :P). It was cute. Hehe, nerds. And the whole thing about Adam, aww... I totally picture that ^^ Hee "Ho' sick."
Finally caught up with my Deviant Art (yet, didn't really SEE all the artwork, but finally cleared it up!). I will be trying to watch that more diligently, as well as upating regularly, too! :# TRY!
Ah...a time to feel insecure.
I hate this feeling of dissatisfaction. Oh...There is always a handsome man (well, don't go and start any rumors! This is absolutely not specific @_@) that I'd love to picture myself with....Yet, in reality, I know that someone like that would never think of me the same. I am not a beautiful type of girl. I'm not the type guys would find pretty and actually think in passing (for lack of better expression) "I'd tap that." So, in passing I love to see sexy people, but realizing this aspect, just depresses me. Oh, fuck. I hate being this lame chick and all, but its true (straight guys reading this know it!). I hate it, and all, but I don't know how I could seem so beautiful to those I find beautiful. It just doesn't work for me, I guess. I mean...maybe my standards are high, but even with lowered expectations, I don't think I'll get someone to see me that way....
This and I feel fucked up sometimes. I feel so drained. I feel like I can barely handle shit. What the hell? Maybe its because I stop the momentum, thus allowing myself to rest, making it harder to start again. Perhaps...But when I think about this, when I hear it being told to me, I feel like an idiot and loser. Maybe I am, hah. I just, I dunno...But hearing this sort of stuff when I already know it, hurts....I feel as if, I don't know, it upsets me because I ALREADY KNOW and hearing it over makes me feel even worse. I need anger management or something. I dunno.
Well, it was bound to happen sooner or later, this post of self meloncholy. People die constantly of starvation and here I am complaining about not having a boyfriend or something lame like that. Fuck, I'm a bad person ;_; I hate feeling so helpless for people like that, and then being so selfish in my own self wallowing shit.
Fuck me!
....I like that song that's like "Well, I would walk 500 miles and I would walk 500 more" Someone tell me who that's by...
....Mmm...Eve talks of a Powerpuff girls anime...While I'm sure it sucks, still intriguing...