I love you.
There's absolutely nothing the doctor's can do. The doctors said the has cancer spread through out area's where they can not treat it. I guess the cancer is in his neck and hip bones. It's not fair, I just don't understand out of any of these damn test they've been running on him how come they never looked for bone cancer??? Maybe than we could of possibly helped him. This is why I don't believe in god, there's no use. The doctors told us that they dont have a cristal ball to predict how long he can survive with this type of cancer. I hate god. This next weekend papa and the whole family is going to go up to the Sleeping Bear Dunes. He wants to go up there one last time.... I'm trying to be strong..but I just cant pretend any more. So much is going to change through out the next few weeks, months and I'm scared to death. I hope papa know's it's okay to go. We cant expect him to go on forever in such agony, to do so would make us selfish.
I love him with all my heart and sole.