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So rightnow it's eleven fifty three, almost midnight and im eating some fruitloops when i think to myself ' go write in livejournal' and this is where it got me. I would like to introduce to you a fear of mine, the future. Maybe your thinking oh god, the future...but at least im one of the few that know thats what your thinking. Im scared that the idea i have of my life wount make it, and I will settle for less. I dont want to, but I've done such a good job finding the easy way to do things. Im scared I'll loose some of the best friends of my life because of poor qaulity choices and im terrified that i've fucked up my academic record, it must be ridiculously awfull in any comparison. I cant go to florida because i've missed too much school and i found out today that my aunts wedding is the twentith.I thought it'd be fine, hey i can go to prom then right, WRONG because i've fucked that up i have and iss next week and when you have one of them your unpermitted to go to prom. So may at least leaves me with mark to look forward to, even if it is at the end of the month and after not seeing brett for a week also.....i just want to sleep all day everyday untill summers finally here
i love you
nikki
i love you
nikki