What Can I Do?! I Love You
you reminded me again of what i was capable of feeling
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i hate this so fucking much! You know how I was on that diet? Well, lets just put it this way, screw it! I have been eating shit alll weekend/week. Yesterday i had a whole bowl of ice cream with all these toppings & shit. and today again, i had another one. wtf is wrong with me!!?? i can never stick to the god damn diet!@# i'm guna turn out to be a HEIFER! if not now, i will be later! i dont have to promise about that!
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i hate myself.. not myself, myself (lol) i hate the fact that i come home straight from school and sit on my ass. i clean for my mom and do my homewerk but that's about it. i am definitely joining something before this year is over! im tired of this shit. always feeling like a loner, always feeling fat, always feeling like im not worth anything.
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school was pretty fun. we had an awesome assembly 2nd period. i voted for *Phill* and i'm glad he won!!!!! WHOO WHOO eww and in lunch.. Keith was telling us that when his parents were drunk or something they told him how he was born. “well you started off with a blow job…then I put four fingers in your mother. . . .“ I would have cut my ears out if my parents ever told me how I was “made” YUCK!
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well i gotta start some laundry & do some other crap. i'll write in here later~
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i hate this so fucking much! You know how I was on that diet? Well, lets just put it this way, screw it! I have been eating shit alll weekend/week. Yesterday i had a whole bowl of ice cream with all these toppings & shit. and today again, i had another one. wtf is wrong with me!!?? i can never stick to the god damn diet!@# i'm guna turn out to be a HEIFER! if not now, i will be later! i dont have to promise about that!
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i hate myself.. not myself, myself (lol) i hate the fact that i come home straight from school and sit on my ass. i clean for my mom and do my homewerk but that's about it. i am definitely joining something before this year is over! im tired of this shit. always feeling like a loner, always feeling fat, always feeling like im not worth anything.
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school was pretty fun. we had an awesome assembly 2nd period. i voted for *Phill* and i'm glad he won!!!!! WHOO WHOO eww and in lunch.. Keith was telling us that when his parents were drunk or something they told him how he was born. “well you started off with a blow job…then I put four fingers in your mother. . . .“ I would have cut my ears out if my parents ever told me how I was “made” YUCK!
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well i gotta start some laundry & do some other crap. i'll write in here later~