Who Woulda Thought???
This last year of 2009 was jus.................... WOW is the best word I can come up with. I feel as tho I have lived separate lives, playing different people in each life but still being myself, it is hard to describe. I was living in my own apartment in Tulsa. I really got into the gothic scene. Fell for a guy, actually to be honest two guys. One of which I felt deep in my heart would never work out because of our age differences, but I really cared for this guy A LOT. At the same time there was this other guy that I liked as well. He was closer to my age and so forth. BUT I would become someone completely different around him. I wasn't me at all. I still don't know why or what there was about it that I would become so crazy around him. But he had enough of me and my crazy self so it didn't work out. During this time of love caos as I will call it, I talked to another guy, who at the time was only a close friend of mine, over the phone every once and awhile. A guy that I had known for 9 years. The first guy that I ever really dated, the first guy I ever truely fell in love with (DEEPLY IN LOVE). I use to babysit his kids 9 years ago and we started dating. I knew then that he was in my life for a reason, that I would/could spend my entire life with him but when we broke up I still knew in my heart that he was put in my life for a reason but it was hidden in a mass of confusion. Even tho I understood why we broke up it still blew me away when he said he couldn't continue the relationship at this time. A few years later after not seeing nor hearing from one another we found eachother again at a hospital where I was voluteering at. I knew that this guy had worked for a water company delivering water.One day I so happened to see the same company's truck in the driveway of this hospital. So curious as I was, went up to the driver and asked if this guy still worked for this company, coming to find out it was the man I was about to ask about, the man I fell in love with, and dated a few years pryor. We got to talking, exchanged contact info, and continued to see each other on certain days at the hospital. We eventually started dating again but after a few months broke up again. This time we remained friends and in contact with each other calling one another in time of need or jus to talk. After my breakup with the two guys that I really liked that I mentioned earlier, I was really down and depressed. I prayed that God would put someone in my life so I can forget my love caos incedents. At this time My friend that I had been talking to over the phone automatically started calling me more often without him realizing that I needed him more than ever. Now I am so happy to announce that we are closer than ever before. We are both (DEEPLY IN LOVE) with eachother. We are infact getting married in the spring of this year of 2010. Things are going really well for both of us. I thank God every day for him and I know that he also thanks God for me too. Everyone is happy for us as well as his two great kids. I knew 9 years ago, that God put this man in my life for a reason, that I know I now that I will/can spend my entire life with. That dream, and that prayer came tru. THANK YOU SO MUCH JESUS!!! :)