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last night was really weird. i just get annoyed with people sometimes. there are only a few people i could sit and talk to for hours but... i dunno. it really sucked. i went to one of my dad's friend's retirement parties and and didn't get to eat much because i rushed to go home, take a shower, get ready, and meet holly, morgan, and liz at fridays. all for freaking dessert and sitting in the parking lot for 30 minutes trying to figure out what to do. and then to barnes and noble for 5 minutes and then home. the whole night i was just kinda blah. and morgan and i were just kinda like "fighting" back and forth so to say. well, me with my sarcasm... i can be pretty brutal sometimes and i'm sure it got to her and the things she was saying just kept annoying me. i feel horrible about it because i love morgan dearly and i don't know if she's mad at me or what. i haven't talked to her yet. but we'll see. i just need my alone space.
but i think that's why i think i get so broken hearted when i lose someone i can deal with for extended periods of time. it's like a moth to a flame. i have to let them go because it just hurts so bad holding on. but i keep on trying to hold on and they keep blowing me off and making me feel unimportant.... whether it's intentionally or unintentionally. and then some other times... it's just something out of my control. but i think i've let those go.
two years ago, i wish i could've stopped the rain...
a year ago, i wish i wasn't in spain [or just maybe not with you]...
i look at the little treasure chest sort of box amanda gave me for christmas and it makes me smile... it reminds me of the little prince. it's like my own sunset that i can have anytime i want.
but i think that's why i think i get so broken hearted when i lose someone i can deal with for extended periods of time. it's like a moth to a flame. i have to let them go because it just hurts so bad holding on. but i keep on trying to hold on and they keep blowing me off and making me feel unimportant.... whether it's intentionally or unintentionally. and then some other times... it's just something out of my control. but i think i've let those go.
two years ago, i wish i could've stopped the rain...
a year ago, i wish i wasn't in spain [or just maybe not with you]...
i look at the little treasure chest sort of box amanda gave me for christmas and it makes me smile... it reminds me of the little prince. it's like my own sunset that i can have anytime i want.