This is going to be a plain posting.
Happy Easter!
Today, I had breakfast with Kerrie and my brother. Then went over to my house and played with my little sister until she went to her mother's house.
Easter dinner was at John's mom's house. So my mom, John, Heather, Audriona and myself went down there. It was actually good. Usually John's mom cooks horribly. But this year his sister's husband helped her so it was acutally good. Yes!
After dinner there, Heather, Audriona and I went to Opie's (Heather's baby's dad) family dinner. It was horrible. There was like 15 people there. All of the fucking reeked of booze and marijuanna. G-reat! By 8:30 there was fighting, not surprising. So Heather and me left with the girls to go the Heather's.
But I decided not to go and came home.
I called my boyfriend. But, in the department I'm not sure what's happening. It sucks so freaking bad. I mean how can you guys tell a girl you love them and make future plans with them, and then one day just act as if they don't exsist? You all suck. I mean it is usually the girls who get hurt too. We are reluctant to tell a guy we love them, and to put our hearts out there on the line ((we know how all guys are)) and yet, somehow guys make us do it over and over again. Long enough for us to believe their "I love you's" and to fall for them hard. Then its like you blink your eyes and its all gone. In my case however, I know the obstacles of my relationship and I know what must be done to make it work. He just doesn't seem to understand what he's doing. But its hard. You want to hate them for making you feel so lucky and happy and then one day sad and alone but you can't help but to love them. He's the only guy I have ever changed anything about myself for. I gave up partying for him. G-reat. I wonder too if losing one of my best friends in the world, was becasue of him? And its a shame, you look at the one special person and your so blinded by their "perfectness" that you don't see their flaws. And then when you lose people, that's when you lose them too. But I don't want to lose him. I'm holding on. I know that something is still there, I can feel it. He's just busy.
Call me if you would like. 990-9620
*love always*
Today, I had breakfast with Kerrie and my brother. Then went over to my house and played with my little sister until she went to her mother's house.
Easter dinner was at John's mom's house. So my mom, John, Heather, Audriona and myself went down there. It was actually good. Usually John's mom cooks horribly. But this year his sister's husband helped her so it was acutally good. Yes!
After dinner there, Heather, Audriona and I went to Opie's (Heather's baby's dad) family dinner. It was horrible. There was like 15 people there. All of the fucking reeked of booze and marijuanna. G-reat! By 8:30 there was fighting, not surprising. So Heather and me left with the girls to go the Heather's.
But I decided not to go and came home.
I called my boyfriend. But, in the department I'm not sure what's happening. It sucks so freaking bad. I mean how can you guys tell a girl you love them and make future plans with them, and then one day just act as if they don't exsist? You all suck. I mean it is usually the girls who get hurt too. We are reluctant to tell a guy we love them, and to put our hearts out there on the line ((we know how all guys are)) and yet, somehow guys make us do it over and over again. Long enough for us to believe their "I love you's" and to fall for them hard. Then its like you blink your eyes and its all gone. In my case however, I know the obstacles of my relationship and I know what must be done to make it work. He just doesn't seem to understand what he's doing. But its hard. You want to hate them for making you feel so lucky and happy and then one day sad and alone but you can't help but to love them. He's the only guy I have ever changed anything about myself for. I gave up partying for him. G-reat. I wonder too if losing one of my best friends in the world, was becasue of him? And its a shame, you look at the one special person and your so blinded by their "perfectness" that you don't see their flaws. And then when you lose people, that's when you lose them too. But I don't want to lose him. I'm holding on. I know that something is still there, I can feel it. He's just busy.
Call me if you would like. 990-9620
*love always*