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I just had an amazing realization in the shower that has calmed my nerves a bit. Sorry if this is a bit random.....it is 650am....
It is ok if I fail this class.
No one is going to be disappointed in me, especially not myself.
This was probably not the greatest choice of a semester to take a class that I knew would be so hard.
From the second week of school until fall break, I lived somewhere where I didn't feel home. I was working over 30 hours a week, 12 of those at a job I absolutely despised. And every free moment I had besides that, I was working on my apartment, not doing homework or studying.
So basically, I put myself behind at the get-go.
And now I'm teetering on a 71%. Unless Kealey decides to be a nice guy and just give me the C (which he almost NEVER is), I'll be seeing him again next fall (unless by some grace of God, someone else teaches that class by then).
But its FINE.
At least then, I'll have an idea of how much work I'll have to put in and I'll know what to expect. And MAYBE I can come out of it with an A.
sounds like a good goal for me.
So tonight I'm still going to study for a few hours, but not stress myself out. Because it would be worth it to retake it again next fall if I don't pass.
It was so amazing to see Josh last night. It will be a wonderful 3 1/2 weeks with him here. Sadly, he's leaving for Germany on my goddamn birthday - major suck.
But he's done so well for himself, which makes me proud. =)
Basically, the point of this is that I'm not going to let this test bring me down because, face it, its not the end of the world, college is not the end of the world, there are so many more important things to worry about sometimes.
It's going to be OK!
It is ok if I fail this class.
No one is going to be disappointed in me, especially not myself.
This was probably not the greatest choice of a semester to take a class that I knew would be so hard.
From the second week of school until fall break, I lived somewhere where I didn't feel home. I was working over 30 hours a week, 12 of those at a job I absolutely despised. And every free moment I had besides that, I was working on my apartment, not doing homework or studying.
So basically, I put myself behind at the get-go.
And now I'm teetering on a 71%. Unless Kealey decides to be a nice guy and just give me the C (which he almost NEVER is), I'll be seeing him again next fall (unless by some grace of God, someone else teaches that class by then).
But its FINE.
At least then, I'll have an idea of how much work I'll have to put in and I'll know what to expect. And MAYBE I can come out of it with an A.
sounds like a good goal for me.
So tonight I'm still going to study for a few hours, but not stress myself out. Because it would be worth it to retake it again next fall if I don't pass.
It was so amazing to see Josh last night. It will be a wonderful 3 1/2 weeks with him here. Sadly, he's leaving for Germany on my goddamn birthday - major suck.
But he's done so well for himself, which makes me proud. =)
Basically, the point of this is that I'm not going to let this test bring me down because, face it, its not the end of the world, college is not the end of the world, there are so many more important things to worry about sometimes.
It's going to be OK!