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hey everyone...
man oh man! it has been a long time since i wrote in this bad ass muther fucker.. lol.. hhehehehehe.. anyways.. so today i have tons to tell.. so.. let me start
1. boyfriends --- i havent yet decided if i want one or not... since... man, i dont have really have the time for a boyfriend unless he goes to my school or doesnt mind hanging out with me after like 10... or before 2 in the afternoon on weekends.. because i mean, now, i cant really hang out on weekends... i dunno.. and at night, sometimes i have projects and stuff... other nights, i just dont feel like doing anything.. i dont know... plus, none of the guys at school really appeal to me that much.. i mean.. if i *HAD* to choose, tehres a few id take... but definitely not anyone id go up to and be liek "hey.. im in love with you" .. lol... but .. you see, i dont really an actual boyfriend.. i just want love... not boyfriend.. love... its more.. i want someone to claim as my own... and someone who i can love.. and they'll love me back.. yah know? its not the sex that i want! i mean.. sure, foreplay freakin' rocks.. i dunno if sex rocks (im a virgin =)) but... whatev! thats my story about boyfriends..
2. people at school --- well you see, there are a few people that are really bothering me right now... they dont really know who they are.. except maybe one because im mean to him and sometimes i feel bad.. but he really frustrates me a lot... if we took like 4 key people out of the hallway where i hang out... man, i'd have no problems... all 4 of those people are girls... and out of those 4, three have big boobs and small waists! the other has small boobs and a small waist!!! i dont know... i dont even find them all that hott! and i mean im NOT bi! but i can tell when a girl is pretty or not... and a few of them dont even have inner beauty... bah.. so anyways, they bother me.. and since the guys are there, they flirt with all of them.. and i think its stupid.. a couple of the guys are actually really smart until the girls come around and theyre stupid asses because the girls are flirts! they dont know who they are because im not telling them that they bother me.. so if they ask, im gunna say no.. and if it isnt you, im still gunna say no.. im gunna say no regardless.. because im not gunna hurt anyones feelings.. you should know who you are if youre reading this entry and maybe calm it down a bit because i mean, not everyone wants to see you manhandling yourself and letting the guys get all over you... and no, guys wont always drop at your feet and do everything you want them to.. guys are humans too.. not your little sex slave.. maybe you pay him later, but hes still not your slave.. and girls, the one guy that flirts with you most has a girlfriend.. and although his girlfriend does the exact same thing, its still not right for you to flirt with him... nor is it right for him to flirt with you.. so get a grip people.. get a grip!
3. i have a job =) --- so i started work at sears last thursday... i had training thursday and friday night from 4-9.. and then training on saturday and sunday (yesterday) from 8-4.. thats not bad.. but my schedule is kinda weird.. it bothers me because i work shifts like 2-10... i mean.. i cant really do anything after that.. i cant go to the movies, thats for sure.. and i cant do anything before that because i dont get up all that early.. so im kinda screwed.. but thats cool..
so under miscellaneous.... i havent driven in a while.. i wanna drive.. but its been rainy and stuff lately.. i dunno.. and its almost winter. so i really dont know...
but i better get going! i luv yahs!
much luv, check yahs later~
*niKkaH~° (-eat my bum-)