FINAL Social Update: Week 19
Not a whole lot of results this week. As to be expected, since I was going to take tests and then leave when I'm done, I didn't say goodbye to all but two of my friends. Let's look at the whole writeup.
Week 19: May 26-27
I got to English at around 9:15. One of the guys (forget his name) was just leaving and I waved at him (he's mute) and sat at the bench for a while. Charmika came out and told me gleefully that she passed the class. I told her that I wasn't surprised (or something along that line) and she said "I know you passed the class, you're a genius." I thought about it for a second, since I don't think I really acted very smart. I was mostly quiet, and I never got much good grades in the class. I am an honor student though, so I responded a little egotistically: "How do you know that?" laughing. Cool moment. That was all the talking (with classmates) for the class.
The actual meeting with my teacher was also good. I gave her a paper projecting a B grade for the class based on my grades (B average on essays, all my homework, okay attendance) and she agreed. I got an 87/100 overall. I did make a case for an A, which consisted of applications of what I learned from the class. She didn't seem to buy it, but she told me I should be happy with a B considering how hard this class was. She seemed to know a lot about me from my journals, giving me advice on how to complete assignments and get friends at Cal. ("Seek help" instead of trying to do everything alone, and we also contrasted socializing at community colleges and universities) It was a good conversation and a nice way to end the class.
Afterwords I didn't see anybody, though two of the guys in the class were seen later and I waved at them.
I went to library and studied music history, but I decided it was nice out so I studied outside in the courtyard instead. I was not able to meet Jay Lehmann the music chair as I wanted to. I decided to head over to the PC lab to finish up my Jazz History and Music History assignments, but I wound up doing work on my Cal schedule. It looks like I'll get to take Astronomy and Political Science, which makes me happy. It's not final of course.
I went to BCC to study Biology and I hoped to run into Bio classmates, but it was a long shot and sure enough, I couldn't find anybody.
Wednesday was the big day. Two finals, two girls I wanted to make amends with, other girls and guys I wanted to say one final goodbye to. Although I've decided to possibly remain at Laney for Piano, Guitar, and even Voice. So in the end I didn't think it was necessary to act like I was never seeing anybody again unless they were leaving. (As far as I know, only one person is not coming back, and we are Facebook friends now)
I got to Music History a little bit after 8am. Leslie was there, and I thought about sitting next to her, but since it was a final and I didn't want to be close to other people, I sat behind her. I could have talked to her but I decided in the end, it wasn't worth it to make a scene in the classroom.
We both finished our test around the same time. I walked out and got water, saw my Speech teacher who wished me luck in the future and even wanted me to stay around and tutor. Leslie stayed inside and read a book. I decided to stay in the room and wait for the listening test while playing Yoshi's Island on my DS.
Both tests went over surprisingly well. I got every single song on the listening test right away without any confusion. (I would wind up 100 for 100 all-time in Music History listening tests)
Although it was obvious she finished it too, she was not getting up. I decided to wait until she finished so I could leave with her. She never got up. Even as time was approaching her 10am final she was not getting up. It was about 9:45 and I thought about waiting the final 15 minutes but I started getting doubts. It would be pretty obvious that I would be following her and it would be way too much of a scene outside class if people were seeing us. I also wanted to show some resolve. If she didn't want to talk to me, why should I talk to her? I don't like that our four-semester long friendship ended this way. I may see her again in the fall, but I cannot imagine anything going smooth with us anymore. I didn't say goodbye to anyone else either, including Sophia who walked by me as I was walking around campus but ignored me, though that was more because she's more reserved than I am.
So I stayed around the Music department to talk to the teacher. I saw Krystel, who I took a class with last semester but only bumped into her this semester. The conversation we had was our first ever though. It was a nice one as she talked about the classes she was taking and her plans for next semester. Marc came in and we talked for a bit. I also talked to some of the sight singing students like Shanti and Kate, but I only really talked to Marc, Kim, and the teacher for about an hour or two. I talked about what I'll be doing at Cal, my intentions to visit the Laney department and then Marc and I talked for a bit about girls... and guys. He's actually bisexual, and has a thing for me. I'm rather indifferent to his interest in me, but there's absolutely no way I would do anything with a guy. I ran over to the BART station quickly, waved goodbye to Kate who was sitting nearby on the grass. Later that night, she added me as a friend on Facebook. She found me on JQ's facebook presumably, though I'm not sure of any reasoning other than that. (Whether she sought me out, or whether I was brought up in a talk with JQ, etc.) I do appreciate it though.
So that was it for the Laney chapter of my life, besides cameo appearanes at World Music series in the fall.
Time to close the BCC chapter. I got to BCC around 12:50, ate my lunch on the second floor and after I was done, I went to library and saw Janneth. We studied Biology next to each other (but not necessarily together) for the next hour and a half, and eventually Mary Carmen came in too. Afterwards I went to the basement where the Bio final was taking place. I saw a bunch of people for the last time, but opted not to talk to them. My sister's best friend Jannelle, who's in the class, saw me and had a short talk with me, congratulating me for getting accepted to Cal (tried to make sure I was aware she got it from Michelle and she wasn't stalking me, as if I wasn't aware of their friendship! lol)
For the record, I never saw Analisa yesterday, so the awkward events of last Monday winds up being or last day together. Wonderful. Better than my last day with Leslie I guess.
The Bio final was a disaster. I was stuck on most of the multiple choice questions, and I wouldn't be shocked if I got half of them (there were 50) wrong. The 3 written questions were tough and were worth the final 50 points but they could make or break my final and whether I get an A, B or C in the class.
After the final I made the unusual decision to remain at class to see Janneth and Mary one more time. Mary eventually came out and I talked to her a bit about the test. I was very distraught about what happened. She was similarly concerned that she didn't do well on the test. I kind of felt better than other people seemed to have the same problems. If the teacher Pieter grades on a curve I might be in good shape.
Even though I was out after class way too long, I waited a bit longer for Janneth, knowing that it may be too obvious why I was still around. I sat somewhere and played my DS for a while, and eventually she came out but I couldn't talk to her. Worse yet, she saw from friends at a nearby table and she sat with them for nearly an hour. Mary was waiting for her too (but they're good friends) but eventually she got up and left. I told her to wait for a second, and I told her how great it was to be friends with her this semester (I called it "forgettable" with the thoughts of Leslie, Analisa, Sophia, Amanthis, and all the other girls who I failed to say goodbye to, and the fact that I only got 1 hug this semester from a girl and that was on the first day of school. For comparisons sake, the last 3 semesters I had at least 4) I told her I wasn't going to be around this semester but I'd be nearby at Cal. I thought about hugging her but we didn't. A while later I also talked to often-lab partner Peter, told him it was nice to know him.
I called Dad and he said he could pick me up at 5. So I waited around with my DS in hand. Janneth and her friends started to walk out, and just as I was thinking she was going to pass me by without saying anything, she does look at me and wishes me a goodbye. I told her it was nice to meet her and she agreed, and said "Maybe I'll see you next semester" which I sarcastically replied "Sure, why not." Sounded like a jerk, but I didn't have the heart to say I wasn't going to be around. One of my favorite classmates this semester, and probably the prettiest, I didn't hug her either.
Ten minutes later I went to the PC lab to check Myspace and Facebook one last time, then got picked up by Dad, saying so long to BCC.
Thus ending the Spring 2009 semester.
I'll writeup a detailed review of the semester, and all my 8 full-time semesters at Laney/BCC, with some Top 10 lists, greatest moments, worst moments, and later on, I'll have my grades for this semester and do a writeup of my past 8 semesters academically.
What a semester, although if I look at stats like hugs, goodbyes, cliques I was able to participate in, missed oppurtunities, the fact that I scared off at least 3 girls, this semester didn't work out as well as the last 2 or 3. Looking at the big picture, I made a good amount of friends compared to previous semesters, was doing just as well academically, was a lot more outgoing, asked out one girl (though she started to avoid me after that), and wound with two people (maybe more upcoming) on my Facebook, lots of drama/suspense, and lots of good and bad memories, this was a great semester.
Week 19: May 26-27
I got to English at around 9:15. One of the guys (forget his name) was just leaving and I waved at him (he's mute) and sat at the bench for a while. Charmika came out and told me gleefully that she passed the class. I told her that I wasn't surprised (or something along that line) and she said "I know you passed the class, you're a genius." I thought about it for a second, since I don't think I really acted very smart. I was mostly quiet, and I never got much good grades in the class. I am an honor student though, so I responded a little egotistically: "How do you know that?" laughing. Cool moment. That was all the talking (with classmates) for the class.
The actual meeting with my teacher was also good. I gave her a paper projecting a B grade for the class based on my grades (B average on essays, all my homework, okay attendance) and she agreed. I got an 87/100 overall. I did make a case for an A, which consisted of applications of what I learned from the class. She didn't seem to buy it, but she told me I should be happy with a B considering how hard this class was. She seemed to know a lot about me from my journals, giving me advice on how to complete assignments and get friends at Cal. ("Seek help" instead of trying to do everything alone, and we also contrasted socializing at community colleges and universities) It was a good conversation and a nice way to end the class.
Afterwords I didn't see anybody, though two of the guys in the class were seen later and I waved at them.
I went to library and studied music history, but I decided it was nice out so I studied outside in the courtyard instead. I was not able to meet Jay Lehmann the music chair as I wanted to. I decided to head over to the PC lab to finish up my Jazz History and Music History assignments, but I wound up doing work on my Cal schedule. It looks like I'll get to take Astronomy and Political Science, which makes me happy. It's not final of course.
I went to BCC to study Biology and I hoped to run into Bio classmates, but it was a long shot and sure enough, I couldn't find anybody.
Wednesday was the big day. Two finals, two girls I wanted to make amends with, other girls and guys I wanted to say one final goodbye to. Although I've decided to possibly remain at Laney for Piano, Guitar, and even Voice. So in the end I didn't think it was necessary to act like I was never seeing anybody again unless they were leaving. (As far as I know, only one person is not coming back, and we are Facebook friends now)
I got to Music History a little bit after 8am. Leslie was there, and I thought about sitting next to her, but since it was a final and I didn't want to be close to other people, I sat behind her. I could have talked to her but I decided in the end, it wasn't worth it to make a scene in the classroom.
We both finished our test around the same time. I walked out and got water, saw my Speech teacher who wished me luck in the future and even wanted me to stay around and tutor. Leslie stayed inside and read a book. I decided to stay in the room and wait for the listening test while playing Yoshi's Island on my DS.
Both tests went over surprisingly well. I got every single song on the listening test right away without any confusion. (I would wind up 100 for 100 all-time in Music History listening tests)
Although it was obvious she finished it too, she was not getting up. I decided to wait until she finished so I could leave with her. She never got up. Even as time was approaching her 10am final she was not getting up. It was about 9:45 and I thought about waiting the final 15 minutes but I started getting doubts. It would be pretty obvious that I would be following her and it would be way too much of a scene outside class if people were seeing us. I also wanted to show some resolve. If she didn't want to talk to me, why should I talk to her? I don't like that our four-semester long friendship ended this way. I may see her again in the fall, but I cannot imagine anything going smooth with us anymore. I didn't say goodbye to anyone else either, including Sophia who walked by me as I was walking around campus but ignored me, though that was more because she's more reserved than I am.
So I stayed around the Music department to talk to the teacher. I saw Krystel, who I took a class with last semester but only bumped into her this semester. The conversation we had was our first ever though. It was a nice one as she talked about the classes she was taking and her plans for next semester. Marc came in and we talked for a bit. I also talked to some of the sight singing students like Shanti and Kate, but I only really talked to Marc, Kim, and the teacher for about an hour or two. I talked about what I'll be doing at Cal, my intentions to visit the Laney department and then Marc and I talked for a bit about girls... and guys. He's actually bisexual, and has a thing for me. I'm rather indifferent to his interest in me, but there's absolutely no way I would do anything with a guy. I ran over to the BART station quickly, waved goodbye to Kate who was sitting nearby on the grass. Later that night, she added me as a friend on Facebook. She found me on JQ's facebook presumably, though I'm not sure of any reasoning other than that. (Whether she sought me out, or whether I was brought up in a talk with JQ, etc.) I do appreciate it though.
So that was it for the Laney chapter of my life, besides cameo appearanes at World Music series in the fall.
Time to close the BCC chapter. I got to BCC around 12:50, ate my lunch on the second floor and after I was done, I went to library and saw Janneth. We studied Biology next to each other (but not necessarily together) for the next hour and a half, and eventually Mary Carmen came in too. Afterwards I went to the basement where the Bio final was taking place. I saw a bunch of people for the last time, but opted not to talk to them. My sister's best friend Jannelle, who's in the class, saw me and had a short talk with me, congratulating me for getting accepted to Cal (tried to make sure I was aware she got it from Michelle and she wasn't stalking me, as if I wasn't aware of their friendship! lol)
For the record, I never saw Analisa yesterday, so the awkward events of last Monday winds up being or last day together. Wonderful. Better than my last day with Leslie I guess.
The Bio final was a disaster. I was stuck on most of the multiple choice questions, and I wouldn't be shocked if I got half of them (there were 50) wrong. The 3 written questions were tough and were worth the final 50 points but they could make or break my final and whether I get an A, B or C in the class.
After the final I made the unusual decision to remain at class to see Janneth and Mary one more time. Mary eventually came out and I talked to her a bit about the test. I was very distraught about what happened. She was similarly concerned that she didn't do well on the test. I kind of felt better than other people seemed to have the same problems. If the teacher Pieter grades on a curve I might be in good shape.
Even though I was out after class way too long, I waited a bit longer for Janneth, knowing that it may be too obvious why I was still around. I sat somewhere and played my DS for a while, and eventually she came out but I couldn't talk to her. Worse yet, she saw from friends at a nearby table and she sat with them for nearly an hour. Mary was waiting for her too (but they're good friends) but eventually she got up and left. I told her to wait for a second, and I told her how great it was to be friends with her this semester (I called it "forgettable" with the thoughts of Leslie, Analisa, Sophia, Amanthis, and all the other girls who I failed to say goodbye to, and the fact that I only got 1 hug this semester from a girl and that was on the first day of school. For comparisons sake, the last 3 semesters I had at least 4) I told her I wasn't going to be around this semester but I'd be nearby at Cal. I thought about hugging her but we didn't. A while later I also talked to often-lab partner Peter, told him it was nice to know him.
I called Dad and he said he could pick me up at 5. So I waited around with my DS in hand. Janneth and her friends started to walk out, and just as I was thinking she was going to pass me by without saying anything, she does look at me and wishes me a goodbye. I told her it was nice to meet her and she agreed, and said "Maybe I'll see you next semester" which I sarcastically replied "Sure, why not." Sounded like a jerk, but I didn't have the heart to say I wasn't going to be around. One of my favorite classmates this semester, and probably the prettiest, I didn't hug her either.
Ten minutes later I went to the PC lab to check Myspace and Facebook one last time, then got picked up by Dad, saying so long to BCC.
Thus ending the Spring 2009 semester.
I'll writeup a detailed review of the semester, and all my 8 full-time semesters at Laney/BCC, with some Top 10 lists, greatest moments, worst moments, and later on, I'll have my grades for this semester and do a writeup of my past 8 semesters academically.
What a semester, although if I look at stats like hugs, goodbyes, cliques I was able to participate in, missed oppurtunities, the fact that I scared off at least 3 girls, this semester didn't work out as well as the last 2 or 3. Looking at the big picture, I made a good amount of friends compared to previous semesters, was doing just as well academically, was a lot more outgoing, asked out one girl (though she started to avoid me after that), and wound with two people (maybe more upcoming) on my Facebook, lots of drama/suspense, and lots of good and bad memories, this was a great semester.