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[nikixfm]

i had the most overwhelming sence of sadness
i will have a panic attack in.. 2 minutes
i feel i could end my life and not effect anyone right now
i was elated before
the tiniest nudge
and i fall of the edge
i hate this
everyone feels sad sometimes
i just... lose control
and i am always in control
now i'm not
and i hate it
it scares me
i'm out of my element
i always have been
but now
i'm off the charts
i don't even know what to say..
i... will sulk into the darkness
red ember burning