do i really 043002

[nikitakat]

I wonder why
I even bother
Believing I miss your smile
When I know
The smile
I really miss
Is my own.
Happy or sad
With no in between.
Try living in
Black and white
For a bit
And maybe you'll understand.
You sir,
I swear,
Do not want
Me to smile
Ever again.
Just take it away,
Why don't you?
While you're at it,
Take spring.
This pointless season
Reminds me of you.