what to do now?
Blah! I'm bored with life. Again.
Will i ever not be? Don't know. Perhaps there is no life where i'm doing what i want to do. I settled for just knowing what i want to do at the moment.
I think i blame tv and films. By their very nature everyone in them is doing something that has importance if only to move the plot along. Life's not like that. I wish it was.
My life would never be any form of tv programme. Well it could but just without me in it. There are a lot of strong interesting other characters in it.
The sister so scared of being alone she first puts up with someone who hits her then with someone who cheats and is just rubbish (although i am sure he can be great sometimes - but then so is everyone sometimes - even murders and rapists and the like so im not sure that should count).
The college friend who fell in love with a guy who is now a convicted killer.
The father who had a mid life crisis and is now living the high life increasing on the red with a much married dodgy past new wife.
The weird dog.
and many many many interesting friends and friends of friends who i won't mention because some things don't get told on public live journals (not that anyone except maybe claire reads this)and the lost and unrequited loves that again i won't mention their stories for the above reason.
even angst aint cool at 25......
im feckin screwed
Will i ever not be? Don't know. Perhaps there is no life where i'm doing what i want to do. I settled for just knowing what i want to do at the moment.
I think i blame tv and films. By their very nature everyone in them is doing something that has importance if only to move the plot along. Life's not like that. I wish it was.
My life would never be any form of tv programme. Well it could but just without me in it. There are a lot of strong interesting other characters in it.
The sister so scared of being alone she first puts up with someone who hits her then with someone who cheats and is just rubbish (although i am sure he can be great sometimes - but then so is everyone sometimes - even murders and rapists and the like so im not sure that should count).
The college friend who fell in love with a guy who is now a convicted killer.
The father who had a mid life crisis and is now living the high life increasing on the red with a much married dodgy past new wife.
The weird dog.
and many many many interesting friends and friends of friends who i won't mention because some things don't get told on public live journals (not that anyone except maybe claire reads this)and the lost and unrequited loves that again i won't mention their stories for the above reason.
even angst aint cool at 25......
im feckin screwed