Is not dead...
So I haven't posted in a long ass time, but you should know that's because I've been hella busy this summer. I've done nothing but work, sleep, and draw (except for occasional adventures out, but those are few and far between) which has solidified my opinion that I'm on the right career path. I've only updated My Fake Heart! twice a week mostly because I have to work a lot to pay for rent. If I could make money from it, I wouldn't have to work as much. I'm planning on reopening my Etsy store soon. I think the last week before school starts I'll work on some stuff for it.
Minneapolis is a good place for me. I'm right next to the school, down the block from work, close to some bars that I feel comfortable in, close to groceries too. The city isn't as dangerous as some might think, as long as I'm intelligent about when and where I go. I love it here, to be blunt. But it's kind of weird to think that 13% of the city's poplulation is LGBT. I'm so used to having a tiny circle of gay/gay friendly friends it was otherwordly almost to be at Pride this summer. To see all these people who are part of my community. It's intimidating, to be honest. I don't know how to act in such a huge crowd of people who are like me. And to be honest, I've never really had a close lesbian friend. Both of my exgirlfriends labeled themselves as bi, so did most of my crushes and friends (who were like that) so when I was invited to hang out with a group of girls from the university who were mostly lesbian, I was overwhelmed. It didn't really help that they were all friends for a long time and had pretty much all dated each other.
My ego has been challenged so much from coming up here. First artistically, now how I view myself as a lesbian is being challenged. I feel like I'm just stumbling along. And I have no idea where to go next. But that's okay. I'm making friends within this new group, with people that seem likeminded, that don't buy into the drama of the group. And I'm enjoying my time growing beyond what I view myself to be.
Minneapolis is a good place for me. I'm right next to the school, down the block from work, close to some bars that I feel comfortable in, close to groceries too. The city isn't as dangerous as some might think, as long as I'm intelligent about when and where I go. I love it here, to be blunt. But it's kind of weird to think that 13% of the city's poplulation is LGBT. I'm so used to having a tiny circle of gay/gay friendly friends it was otherwordly almost to be at Pride this summer. To see all these people who are part of my community. It's intimidating, to be honest. I don't know how to act in such a huge crowd of people who are like me. And to be honest, I've never really had a close lesbian friend. Both of my exgirlfriends labeled themselves as bi, so did most of my crushes and friends (who were like that) so when I was invited to hang out with a group of girls from the university who were mostly lesbian, I was overwhelmed. It didn't really help that they were all friends for a long time and had pretty much all dated each other.
My ego has been challenged so much from coming up here. First artistically, now how I view myself as a lesbian is being challenged. I feel like I'm just stumbling along. And I have no idea where to go next. But that's okay. I'm making friends within this new group, with people that seem likeminded, that don't buy into the drama of the group. And I'm enjoying my time growing beyond what I view myself to be.