If you keep listening you can hear it for miles...
As I go
Remember all the simple things
You know, my mind is just a crutch.
And I still hope, that you will miss me when I'm gone.
This is the last song... -The All American Rejects
I've been gone. A lot. Little Miss Lazy and Antisocial got a job. A cool job at that. I work for a neon company. I get to blow glass, connect the glass to the neon, kind of like a female welder a la Jennifer Beals Flashdance. Also, I add mercury to the glass and add the gas that allows the neon to light in it. Pretty neat stuff. I also do the girly secretarial stuff like answer phones, file papers, clean...Oh, and I don't have to work with bitchy girls. All the guys I work with, are soooo quiet. So therefore I get to be quiet and its okay and not rude.
I go from work, school, and sleep. I feel so exhausted I've never worked my ass off so much. I went from 0 to 100 so quickly. Just to get something done with myself. I felt so worthless for awhile, and now I feel like I'm doing something with myself and that maybe I won't turn out to be so worthless. I got a paycheck and I was like, "Yea! Money!" Then it was all gone, and I was like, "Ewwww. Money." Out of all the money that I recieved, I only purchased some deoderant and $9 kick ass Chinese food for myself.
I'll be glad when things don't feel so hectic. I miss so much now. Like for example:
1. Daniel holding me
2. Sleeping in
3. Catching good movies at 3 in the morning
4. Having more time on the weekend
5. That one hour that I space out
6. Not paying bills
That's all I can think of right now. I've also been trying to ween myself off the computer. The not being here part, helps it. Well, I just wanted to write to say how I was and for myself because I haven't in awhile.
Til next time...
-For the hearts you break everytime you moan-
*Niki*