Title: The Purity of Love
Author:
nikenykPairing: InooBu, YabuHika, Hikanoo
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Life has its on way to show the meaning of love to the three individuals, Yabu Kota, Yaotome Hikaru, and Inoo Kei.
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alois_trancy -Chapter 6-
-Part2-
I know I will be hurting myself if I do this, but… I just don’t like it, seeing him sad…
Yesterday he came to my house and spilled everything. I was taken aback about what he told me, it’s just… I’ve never thought that it would be like this. Since the first time I read Inoo-chan’s book, I know there’s something strange with Inoo-chan.
But who expected it to be like this?
But, no. If you thought about it thoroughly from the very start, it’s not that unexpected.
Fallen angel, eh? Waiting for his death. Isn’t it clearly obvious about what Inoo-chan trying to say?
Now I’m standing right in front of Inoo-chan’s house that the florist and Kota had told me. Me going here is not because of Kota’s request, it’s my own intention to come here.
I immediately enter the house because the gate is wide open as if inviting me in. And then I found Inoo-chan sitting on the bench under the tree, just like what Kota had told me before.
He was just sitting there, spacing out and staring at nothing.
His figure was in the tree’s shadow, but the sun ray which reflected on his body somehow makes his pale skin glowed.
And for the first time since the first time I met Inoo-chan, I agree with Kota that Inoo-chan is an angel. I’ve never admitted it before. Maybe because of the jealousy toward him so my eyes are clouded so I can’t see the true beauty.
Wh-what the hell am I thinking?? I mentally whacked myself.
Not to waste any more seconds, I walked to him and greet him. “Hi Inoo-chan!”
He jumped out and surprised. Surprised because he was caught out spacing out and because seeing me here. “Hi-Hika-chan!”
“Can I sit here?” I grinned.
“Sure, sure” and then I sit next to him.
“Good day for staying outside, ne.”
“Hmm..” He answered me with a smile and a nod.
“Too bad you’re not going out with Kota today, the weather is so nice.”
And it hit him.
“Ah.. hmmm.” His smile turned into a forced one.
“I’ve heard it from Kota.” And then the cheerful atmosphere is gone in an instant.
“Hmmm I know” He answered me.
“He.. cried when he told me everything”
“O-oh….”
“He really loves you.”
And I got nothing in respond. He looked down, staring into nothing, and spacing out again.
I shook his shoulder. “Inoo-chan, don’t be so gloomy! Isn’t it good that there’s someone who loved you with his heart?” I tried to cheer him up, eventhough I know it’s a useless effort.
“Yeah it’s good, really good. But it’s just that… in my condition.. I’d better be alone, with no one loving me. I don’t want to hurt anyone… when my time’s already up.” He smiled weakly and his eyes already became teary.
I didn’t expect him to open up this fast. I thought no matter what I say to him will do nothing on him. He must have reached his limit..
“When your time is up.. what do you want to feel?”
“Eh?”
“Happy or sad? Leaving with love in your heart, or regret?”
He smiled mockingly “Such a rhetorical question you got there, Hika-chan. I don’t think I need to answer it.”
“So you want to be happy right?”
He only respond me with his sarcastic smile. Instead of being offended, I found it interesting.
“Right?” I retorded.
He dropped his sarcastic smile and then he looked down weakly as if he really wanted to cry. Somehow it clenched my heart seeing him like that.
“I want to be happy, Hika-chan.. I want to be with him… I want to be happy with him…” He burst out. His voice is so weak it sounds like a whisper and also so hoarse like he was crying, but I see no tears flowed from his beautiful eyes.
I know he really wanted to cry, but he hold it. He’s been holding his sadness, his pain, all alone. He’s weak, but he’s trying to be strong.
He has something bigger than his beauty, he really has a pure heart. Now I know why Kota loves him so much….. and why I stand no chance over him. Of course Kota would choose him over me.
“Kota wants to be happy with you, too” I told him.
“But it will be unfair to him.. I’ll die and I’ll leave him alone.” He really thought about everyone else.. even if it’s breaking him, he doesn’t want to hurt anyone else.
But he’s unconsciously hurting me..
If I want to be evil, I wouldn’t try to talk to Inoo-chan for Kota’s sake. But I’ll cheer Kota up so I could snatch him again from Inoo. But…….
“But if you leave him now, you’ll be lonely. You want to leave being loved and happy, right?”
But the image of Inoo-chan being sad is also hurting me….
“But..” he protested.
“You love him right?”
He nodded weakly. I secretly felt my heart breaking. But it must go on, I don’t want Kota to be sad.. and I don’t want Inoo-chan to be sad and lonely, too.
“He really loves you he wants you to be happy.. in your remaining time. He doesn’t want you to be lonely like the angel in your story. He wants you to treasure each seconds in your remaining time, Inoo-chan” I patted his head ruffling his hair, like a father would do. And.. his hair is really smooth, I want to touch it more.
“You deserve to be happy, and I know he’ll be happy if you’re happy, plus, if he’s the reason of your happiness.
“Be happy with him, Inoo-chan” I smiled to him, cheering him up, reassuring him to choose the right decision. And then I patted his head again, wanting to feel his smoothness again, before I take my leave.
“I want my precious person in life, both of my bestfriends, to be happy”
And then I showed him the best smile I’ve ever showed to people, so he wouldn’t know how hurt my heart is.
-0-
All I want to do right now is going to Kei’s house and tell him how much I love him and I want to make him happy in his remaining time. But I think he needs time to finally be able to accept me. So I’ll take it slowly so I won’t pressure him too much.
So I tried to distract myself for a while with playing basketball with Hika. But mostly, I spaced out, so it can’t be called as distraction at all.
“Kota, take it!” before I realize, something already hit my face, and in the next second, I fall.
“Oops sorry Kota…” Hikaru smiled apologetically, somehow, I know he does it on purpose. But I don’t want to be mad at him I’m too tired to let out any emotion in me.
He walked to my direction. But instead of helping me to get up, he took the ball and played again, alone.
I grumbled in my mind.
“May I help you?”
Suddenly I heard a very familiar voice that I didn’t even dare to expect.
I looked up and found Kei standing in front of me, offering his hand.
“Ke-Kei..?”
“Come on, let me help you up.”
I took his hand and then he pulled me up until I stand up.
We only standing face to face without saying anything. Kei unexpectedly smile to me as if nothing happened between us, and I still stay with puzzled expression.
“E-hem” Hikaru cleared his throat. “Maybe I should take my leave.”
“U.. uh” I answered him, still puzzled.
“Thank you Hika-chan, thank you.. so much.” Inoo looked at Hikaru and smiled genuinely, and I saw Hikaru blushed because of Inoo’s smile. But I have nothing in mind seeing that, I was still too puzzled.
After Hikaru left, there’s nothing between us beside the silence. Kei looked down, intertwining his own fingers. He looked like he was about to say something but nothing come.
After minutes being silent, Kei finally started. “First.. I want to tell you something.”
I gulp. I don’t know what to expect. I don’t know what he wanted to tell me.
“I’m sorry Kou……”
I was taken aback with it. I didn’t expect him to apologize to me now, and more over, what is he sorry to me about?
“Is it okay.. if I want.. to be happy with you?”
And without letting me grasping his question, Kei suddenly grabbed my clothes and tiptoed until we’re in the same height. And then he quickly leaned on closer to my face, reaching for my lips.
He pressed his lips on mine and it really caught me by surprise.
I really couldn’t think about anything anymore.
This is the second kiss we had, but the kiss.. it felt so new.
The kiss is so different from our first one. In this kiss… I can feel his emotion, I can feel his true self. I can feel it, his love towards me.
After the short but felt so long kiss, he pulled away and part his lips from mine and smile.
“I love you so much, Kou. Please, let me be happy with you.”
But I didn’t answer him. I only looked at him, looking deep into his eyes which reflecting the blank face of mine, without saying anything.
It’s not that I hesitate accepting his offer.. it’s just…. I’m a bit puzzled, why suddenly he changed his mind? This fast…?
But he kept on smiling to me, patiently waiting for my answer.
And I can’t hold it anymore.
“No.”
And his face changed.
“E-eh?”
I pulled him, gently, but fast enough, toward my chest, and embraced him.
“I should be the one who’s asking… please let me make you happy, Kei…”
I can feel he stretched his face and formed a smile on his lips, and then he hugged me back.
But now, the feeling is totally different. Because now, the pure and beautiful angel, is already mine.
To be continued.
A/N: tomorrow is my exam day, and look what I've done! Lol instead of writing the minimum-10-pages papers that I have to submit tomorrow morning and instead of preparing myself for the test tomorrow morning too, I... wrote this.
Btw, enjoy! I hope you like it :D and I'm sorry it's a bit too rushed, teeheee :p
and.. Yay! Finaly Hikanoo is here!