i can't find a wall to pin this to
i think i'm going to be a real big loser & write in here from now on again. even though no one comments & no one reads it. but myspace & facebook are stupid, & honestly, i'm just a dork & i like to write.
somedays i look at my last entry. look at all the pictures. & i miss it so much. because i know it won't ever be like that again. not over break, not next summer, never. because lauren, who i became closer with then ever this summer, doesn't return my phone calls or texts anymore. because i think darrin stopped caring to be my friend. and when i go home, that may make it hard to hang out with all his friends that i've become so close with. because even though i'm still friends with the 4th musketeer, he wasn't too nice to the others. because i haven't seen melissa in forever & i hate losing touch. because i've been so successful in avoiding those people i don't care to stay friends with, that group events aren't going to be fun. because there's different people in my life that i truly feel are best friends. because i've made new friends that i'm going to want to hang out with this summer, probably more than i'm expecting. because i spend every night with marni, daniellex2, & emily here at u of m, & only talk to maybe a total of 7 people who don't go to school with me...though its mainly just kels & devon & dilla. i just don't like most girls i meet here. maybe i judge too quickly. but everyone i meet seems so stuck up, and they're all the same. i hate it. but at least the few people i hang out with live in farmington hills, so i'll be able to see them in the summer.
in other news, i went to a snowboard club party last night with marni & danielle. & i think those are the only parties i'm ever going to again. it was such a better atmosphere than frat parties. there were people just standing around talking, not just beer pong, dancing, and hooking up like the frat parties have. & my favorite part...girls were not overly dressed up in their slutty dresses. they looked like normal, everyday people. & i finally didn't feel out of place at a party.
somedays i look at my last entry. look at all the pictures. & i miss it so much. because i know it won't ever be like that again. not over break, not next summer, never. because lauren, who i became closer with then ever this summer, doesn't return my phone calls or texts anymore. because i think darrin stopped caring to be my friend. and when i go home, that may make it hard to hang out with all his friends that i've become so close with. because even though i'm still friends with the 4th musketeer, he wasn't too nice to the others. because i haven't seen melissa in forever & i hate losing touch. because i've been so successful in avoiding those people i don't care to stay friends with, that group events aren't going to be fun. because there's different people in my life that i truly feel are best friends. because i've made new friends that i'm going to want to hang out with this summer, probably more than i'm expecting. because i spend every night with marni, daniellex2, & emily here at u of m, & only talk to maybe a total of 7 people who don't go to school with me...though its mainly just kels & devon & dilla. i just don't like most girls i meet here. maybe i judge too quickly. but everyone i meet seems so stuck up, and they're all the same. i hate it. but at least the few people i hang out with live in farmington hills, so i'll be able to see them in the summer.
in other news, i went to a snowboard club party last night with marni & danielle. & i think those are the only parties i'm ever going to again. it was such a better atmosphere than frat parties. there were people just standing around talking, not just beer pong, dancing, and hooking up like the frat parties have. & my favorite part...girls were not overly dressed up in their slutty dresses. they looked like normal, everyday people. & i finally didn't feel out of place at a party.