i always find my way home
it seems like whenever i meander back to livejournal its always like i was never away. my good ol free account, (which used to be paid but big deal) sitting here, always waiting for me to come back and open up my mind and heart into words that NEVER really convey how im feeling. and again, this is one of those times. i dont think that there are words in the language that are fitting for life sometimes.
oh but let me tell you, these feelings are fitting for life. the are life. i woke up this morning in a clump of feelings that, like vines, had wrapped themselves around me and tangled themselves in my hair and pierced my skin, took hold and created life inside my chest. its been so long since ive smiled this hard, since ive sat at my mothers kitchen table and rambled on and on, since ive quietly snaked out of my house, to another persons house, just to sleep, just to be that close to this person.
life is really something else, you know? how pain fades away and pleasure fades away and the lines blur with age, and grief and sadness can take hold of someone or you can choose to be alive... i dont know of any other science thats as important as humanity. we are an amazing creation of love. i know its a creation of love because wrapped in all this comfort with a little anxiety i still just can't wait to be in his arms again.
yessss
oh but let me tell you, these feelings are fitting for life. the are life. i woke up this morning in a clump of feelings that, like vines, had wrapped themselves around me and tangled themselves in my hair and pierced my skin, took hold and created life inside my chest. its been so long since ive smiled this hard, since ive sat at my mothers kitchen table and rambled on and on, since ive quietly snaked out of my house, to another persons house, just to sleep, just to be that close to this person.
life is really something else, you know? how pain fades away and pleasure fades away and the lines blur with age, and grief and sadness can take hold of someone or you can choose to be alive... i dont know of any other science thats as important as humanity. we are an amazing creation of love. i know its a creation of love because wrapped in all this comfort with a little anxiety i still just can't wait to be in his arms again.
yessss