A Change

[nik_09_3]

uoi.i was just sittin here and i was fine wen all of a sudden i was struck by a sudden wave of complete and utter understanding. i am bein slowly but surely changin. it makes me sad.i feel i have to close old doors and open new ones. i dont want to abandon my old self,but i am not that person.i am sickof sittin down and takin it like i used to.i want to break all of the rulz all of a sudden.i want to show the world who i am.i want to go after the things i desire at all costs.i want to live on the edge and toe the line. i want to break free. i am taken aback and disgusted by myold ways. it scares me how much i held in and how much i was stepped on. i think im funally discoverin a new and true me. im sad but iam anxious to become me and grow. i alsoam havin the urge to smoke.i know its dumb but oui. well i can supress that long enough to get settled into our new home. after that though...idk illjust have to wait and see what tomarrow brings

well im out
Nikolas Clay
ps i think i want to change my name to signify my change thnx daddy w/out u id never known...;) I <3 u