Make the stress end please
It's one thing after another, I can never catch a fucking break. I'm not sure what I've done so wrong to deserve all the bullshit that I've been having to deal with.
1) I lost my wallet: Had some money in it (less than $10 I believe, but still lost money is lost money...), my ID/temp. driver's license, my Target debit card and my employee discount card (the last isn't that big of a deal but...)
2) My youngest brother wanted to get really fucking stupid over something I don't even feel like explaining right now.
3) I lost my fucking iPhone. I LOST IT. I've tried filing a report with the police and I don't know what else to do about it. NOW I HAVE TO FUCKING REPLACE THAT. With what money??? Hah...ha...haha...I can't believe I lost my fucking phone. Still haven't been able to recover it.
4) My OTHER brother got really stupid with me because I was fed up with having to hear him and his gf having sex all the fucking time. It's very disturbing and just disrespectful EVEN AFTER TELLING HIM ABOUT IT ONCE, he still kept doing it. So I finally went off on him about it and just yelled really loudly for them to fucking stop it.
So then my brother goes on a rampage hitting shit, knocking shit over, etc. Then he came and grabbed my arms yelling in my face (as I'm lying on the couch) like he's going to hit me. He then goes and grabs a glass bottle from his room an holds it as if he's going to hit me with it.
I got him to calm down a little but then he grabbed my water bottle and threw it at the wall and slammed my laptop shut. -_-
5) Today I was THREE HOURS LATE TO WORK. THREE. Because my fucking alarm didn't go off for some reason, or I slept though it? IDK. I still made an effort to go into work though even though there was only like an hour left of my shift. And what sucks about that is I'm pretty sure the fact I called and came in anyway accounts for nothing. It's still considered a no call, no show (equivalent to the same kind of people who don't show up to work for no good reason and just decided to blow it off, at least I tried. But nope, it means nothing.) And I've been late and missed work many times in the last couple months, which makes my attendance look like shit. I feel like I'm on the path of losing my job. But for now I guess I'm still ok...
But all of this was within the span of about 2-3 weeks? Yeah...I am stressed as hell because shit keeps happening to me. I have really fucking bad luck. And to continue the list of BS that's happened within the last couple months:
6) My brother and I paid to have our family car fixed and we also purchased a new used one. The fixed one is doing OK (somewhat, it's started acting up recently) but that was $1000+ to fix (my brother and I split the costs btw). The used car was $2000+. The used car fucking broke down on us within 2 weeks of us owning it...and we still haven't been able to get it fixed because LOL WE HAVE NO MONEY NOW THANKS TO THESE CARS. Worst part of it is that the thing the mechanic worked on busted and was HIS fault, though he's saying it's not...and fucking BS.
7) My account got overdrawn because my brother didn't give me the money he owed me like I told him to so I wouldn't have this problem (because of a bill he and I pay together and it comes out of my account automatically)...so I was dirt poor for 2 weeks because I had nearly $200 in overdraft fees so by time I got paid I had nearly only $50 to last me two weeks.
8) On top of this, I can't seem to find ANY way of catching up now because they fucking cut my hours at work like a mother fucker. So my paycheck this week? $166 dollars (I did miss a day, but it was a really short shift)...When usually my checks are nearly $300 or over $300. So I'm still rather fucking broke right now because I have phone bill to pay and credit card, and jfek jekzf jf all kinds of stupid shit to worry about. Food, gas money, personals, prescriptions...
So I'm always wondering: Am I going to have money to eat? Am I going to have money for gas to get to and from work? Am I going to have money to pay my bills? A lot of financial issues right now. And it's draining me to death.
My will to carry on is but nearly shattered at the moment, one more blow and then I don't know what... Apparently life does not give a shit about me right now. I'm just waiting for the next bad thing to roll around and bite me in the ass.
I have a urinary tract infection too which I've been taking antibiotics for and also had a some kind of respiratory infection. I think I'm getting better. I feel a bit better in that regard.
At least I am done with the semester and I passed my 3 classes with A's and I should be graduating with my Associates of Arts degree if the workers at the college fucking do their jobs right. ;|
I'm moving on with my life, but can't say I'm enjoying it much.
1) I lost my wallet: Had some money in it (less than $10 I believe, but still lost money is lost money...), my ID/temp. driver's license, my Target debit card and my employee discount card (the last isn't that big of a deal but...)
2) My youngest brother wanted to get really fucking stupid over something I don't even feel like explaining right now.
3) I lost my fucking iPhone. I LOST IT. I've tried filing a report with the police and I don't know what else to do about it. NOW I HAVE TO FUCKING REPLACE THAT. With what money??? Hah...ha...haha...I can't believe I lost my fucking phone. Still haven't been able to recover it.
4) My OTHER brother got really stupid with me because I was fed up with having to hear him and his gf having sex all the fucking time. It's very disturbing and just disrespectful EVEN AFTER TELLING HIM ABOUT IT ONCE, he still kept doing it. So I finally went off on him about it and just yelled really loudly for them to fucking stop it.
So then my brother goes on a rampage hitting shit, knocking shit over, etc. Then he came and grabbed my arms yelling in my face (as I'm lying on the couch) like he's going to hit me. He then goes and grabs a glass bottle from his room an holds it as if he's going to hit me with it.
I got him to calm down a little but then he grabbed my water bottle and threw it at the wall and slammed my laptop shut. -_-
5) Today I was THREE HOURS LATE TO WORK. THREE. Because my fucking alarm didn't go off for some reason, or I slept though it? IDK. I still made an effort to go into work though even though there was only like an hour left of my shift. And what sucks about that is I'm pretty sure the fact I called and came in anyway accounts for nothing. It's still considered a no call, no show (equivalent to the same kind of people who don't show up to work for no good reason and just decided to blow it off, at least I tried. But nope, it means nothing.) And I've been late and missed work many times in the last couple months, which makes my attendance look like shit. I feel like I'm on the path of losing my job. But for now I guess I'm still ok...
But all of this was within the span of about 2-3 weeks? Yeah...I am stressed as hell because shit keeps happening to me. I have really fucking bad luck. And to continue the list of BS that's happened within the last couple months:
6) My brother and I paid to have our family car fixed and we also purchased a new used one. The fixed one is doing OK (somewhat, it's started acting up recently) but that was $1000+ to fix (my brother and I split the costs btw). The used car was $2000+. The used car fucking broke down on us within 2 weeks of us owning it...and we still haven't been able to get it fixed because LOL WE HAVE NO MONEY NOW THANKS TO THESE CARS. Worst part of it is that the thing the mechanic worked on busted and was HIS fault, though he's saying it's not...and fucking BS.
7) My account got overdrawn because my brother didn't give me the money he owed me like I told him to so I wouldn't have this problem (because of a bill he and I pay together and it comes out of my account automatically)...so I was dirt poor for 2 weeks because I had nearly $200 in overdraft fees so by time I got paid I had nearly only $50 to last me two weeks.
8) On top of this, I can't seem to find ANY way of catching up now because they fucking cut my hours at work like a mother fucker. So my paycheck this week? $166 dollars (I did miss a day, but it was a really short shift)...When usually my checks are nearly $300 or over $300. So I'm still rather fucking broke right now because I have phone bill to pay and credit card, and jfek jekzf jf all kinds of stupid shit to worry about. Food, gas money, personals, prescriptions...
So I'm always wondering: Am I going to have money to eat? Am I going to have money for gas to get to and from work? Am I going to have money to pay my bills? A lot of financial issues right now. And it's draining me to death.
My will to carry on is but nearly shattered at the moment, one more blow and then I don't know what... Apparently life does not give a shit about me right now. I'm just waiting for the next bad thing to roll around and bite me in the ass.
I have a urinary tract infection too which I've been taking antibiotics for and also had a some kind of respiratory infection. I think I'm getting better. I feel a bit better in that regard.
At least I am done with the semester and I passed my 3 classes with A's and I should be graduating with my Associates of Arts degree if the workers at the college fucking do their jobs right. ;|
I'm moving on with my life, but can't say I'm enjoying it much.