Wow.. It has been a long time.
It has been over a year since I don't post anything here and it's about time I start beating myself up for it.
This site used to mean the world to me, it was the way I kept connected to my friends and my ultimate love that was Arashi.
Now I don't even know what this site means to me, I have thought of deleting my LiveJournal but I don't think I can do that because so many people here meant so much to me at one point. I am a very emotionally attached person so when I love something or loved something everything always remains. When someone helped me or I helped someone I feel attached to that person too.
I can't ever forget Arashi and I always feel a tingle in me whenever someone mentions them or whenever someone tells me something new about them I search it. I am still a fan even though I am not such big of a fan anymore. It annoys me that I let them stray from me so far that it seems so impossible to reach them now. I still remember the fanfic that I wrote about them breaking up. I remember how I was very emotional about that fanfic, how I cry and how I never really want them to break up, but now they seem so distant that I don't even believe I would cry if they break up.
I know the reason why Arashi isn't making me feel the same way anymore. I know the exact reason and around when it happened but I can't ever make myself hate that reason. I can't hate the reason because that reason is my whole life now. Well, at least, it is most of my life.
The reason would be: Kpop.
Yes, I found something else to love back int 2011. I didn't find it by coincidence or by searching, I found it when I found a new friend. This friend was one of my best friends and we no longer see each other but I will forever be thankful to her for bringing me this kind of love into my life. I don't know what my children in the future will say when I tell them that I dedicated the best part of my life to being a fan girl, but I know I won't regret it.
I am in love with the genre we call pop. All I listen to is pop. So if you ever hear me singing Arashi, SHINee, EXO, BTOB, Justin Bieber or even One Direction then I would like you not to judge me. It is pop I like to listen to. I don't care how unattractive One Direction is to me, I am not a fan of their looks, I am a fan of their songs. I don't care how big of an asshole Justin Bieber is because at some point his music was decent and I guess we can say he was a decent human being too. I do fan girl a lot with my Kpop idols but that is because I am attracted to them but I also really love there music and that is the main reason I keep listening to them.
I end this letter saying that no matter how far I stray from my LiveJournal or from Arashi. I will always come back to it because without Arashi or without LiveJournal, I wouldn't have met my wonderful friends here or my wonderful taste in music. I would also like to say that I love you all for accepting me here when I had no where else to go. Thank you & I will see you again soon.
This site used to mean the world to me, it was the way I kept connected to my friends and my ultimate love that was Arashi.
Now I don't even know what this site means to me, I have thought of deleting my LiveJournal but I don't think I can do that because so many people here meant so much to me at one point. I am a very emotionally attached person so when I love something or loved something everything always remains. When someone helped me or I helped someone I feel attached to that person too.
I can't ever forget Arashi and I always feel a tingle in me whenever someone mentions them or whenever someone tells me something new about them I search it. I am still a fan even though I am not such big of a fan anymore. It annoys me that I let them stray from me so far that it seems so impossible to reach them now. I still remember the fanfic that I wrote about them breaking up. I remember how I was very emotional about that fanfic, how I cry and how I never really want them to break up, but now they seem so distant that I don't even believe I would cry if they break up.
I know the reason why Arashi isn't making me feel the same way anymore. I know the exact reason and around when it happened but I can't ever make myself hate that reason. I can't hate the reason because that reason is my whole life now. Well, at least, it is most of my life.
The reason would be: Kpop.
Yes, I found something else to love back int 2011. I didn't find it by coincidence or by searching, I found it when I found a new friend. This friend was one of my best friends and we no longer see each other but I will forever be thankful to her for bringing me this kind of love into my life. I don't know what my children in the future will say when I tell them that I dedicated the best part of my life to being a fan girl, but I know I won't regret it.
I am in love with the genre we call pop. All I listen to is pop. So if you ever hear me singing Arashi, SHINee, EXO, BTOB, Justin Bieber or even One Direction then I would like you not to judge me. It is pop I like to listen to. I don't care how unattractive One Direction is to me, I am not a fan of their looks, I am a fan of their songs. I don't care how big of an asshole Justin Bieber is because at some point his music was decent and I guess we can say he was a decent human being too. I do fan girl a lot with my Kpop idols but that is because I am attracted to them but I also really love there music and that is the main reason I keep listening to them.
I end this letter saying that no matter how far I stray from my LiveJournal or from Arashi. I will always come back to it because without Arashi or without LiveJournal, I wouldn't have met my wonderful friends here or my wonderful taste in music. I would also like to say that I love you all for accepting me here when I had no where else to go. Thank you & I will see you again soon.