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We went to my apartment the other day... kind of strange being there and feeling like this. Strange in a very good way, but still strange. I can see that while obviously it is not a family location that it could still be fun for us sometimes. Maybe a few changes here and there, but good ones. God, I sound so predictable lately. And I do not mind that either. It just felt right for him to be there, he has really only ever seen my cabin so far, even if he is not going to consider it a proper cabin. *laugh* Since we have been together it has been in his apartment, that at his home in Alberta. I have no place anymore back there to have taken them to, just a storage locker in Montreal, I am sure it is packed full, without adding the two of us and a baby there.
I am glad I got to show him some things of mine too. Even if one of those things is my stepfather, even the baby did not make him communicate even a little. But my mom is in love, with Dwayne as well as the baby I think. And the girls, god I think partly they think she is a doll, but they are pretty much obsessed by her already. My sister spends a good bit of her time smacking me for making her blush. I suppose I could stop touching him for five seconds when she is around... but I really do not want to, and anyway it is good for her to broaden her horizons. Or something like that. I know she got my share of shame when it got passed around, at least someone did. Long story short about my family, everyone who is a reasonable person is getting along very well, I love that. All of this has made me think a little about family and everything. I am sort of in the same position as my step father, though we were older when he came into our lives, and not that I would be like that anyway, it just makes me more determined not to be that way for her, you know? There is no way she is going to feel like I have. Ever.
If it is not evidently clear from all of this, I am having a very good summer, and I do not see that changing any time soon. The three of us are just... doing whatever we like, and that suits me just fine. We may be back around, we may go somewhere else, we may... do anything really. As long as the three of us are happy it is all fine by me. I will make sure there are people that I see before anything really happens hockey wise, but other than that, no concrete plans. I kind of love that a lot. And for right now I am going to get the grill started and start working on getting some food hooked up for later on, it is nice out, I think we can drag enough stuff out to eat out on the deck, maybe even go for a swim later. I think that sounds perfect for me actually.
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I am glad I got to show him some things of mine too. Even if one of those things is my stepfather, even the baby did not make him communicate even a little. But my mom is in love, with Dwayne as well as the baby I think. And the girls, god I think partly they think she is a doll, but they are pretty much obsessed by her already. My sister spends a good bit of her time smacking me for making her blush. I suppose I could stop touching him for five seconds when she is around... but I really do not want to, and anyway it is good for her to broaden her horizons. Or something like that. I know she got my share of shame when it got passed around, at least someone did. Long story short about my family, everyone who is a reasonable person is getting along very well, I love that. All of this has made me think a little about family and everything. I am sort of in the same position as my step father, though we were older when he came into our lives, and not that I would be like that anyway, it just makes me more determined not to be that way for her, you know? There is no way she is going to feel like I have. Ever.
If it is not evidently clear from all of this, I am having a very good summer, and I do not see that changing any time soon. The three of us are just... doing whatever we like, and that suits me just fine. We may be back around, we may go somewhere else, we may... do anything really. As long as the three of us are happy it is all fine by me. I will make sure there are people that I see before anything really happens hockey wise, but other than that, no concrete plans. I kind of love that a lot. And for right now I am going to get the grill started and start working on getting some food hooked up for later on, it is nice out, I think we can drag enough stuff out to eat out on the deck, maybe even go for a swim later. I think that sounds perfect for me actually.
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