wreckless energy
everything was fine, probably 30 minutes ago. and then, i just snappped. i dont know what happened. i got into a depth of sadness and just sank down low. so i go into the house, get my phone, and call luke. WHY? probably because i wanted a reason to feel good about myself or something, because i am a shitty person that does shitty things like that.
so i'm talking to luke and i don't want to tell him everything that's wrong but right now he's one of the 5 people who probably cares. and he's truthful with most that he says. but i can't handle him. i feel so bad. and i don't want him back. and i just want to hear what i want to hear, just so for 5minutes i can feel fine about everything. but everything is not fine. i'm on myspace and i see this builltein called "if i died" so i'm reading them to him and have him answer these questions and all of a sudden i start CRYING. and everything gets really hard to say. and i don't know why i'm crying. and i'm shaking. and i am scared. and i don't know why i called. but i wish i wouldn't've. and i need a hug. one with open arms and smells good, warm and comforting. i want real things and not bullshit.
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another
so i'm talking to luke and i don't want to tell him everything that's wrong but right now he's one of the 5 people who probably cares. and he's truthful with most that he says. but i can't handle him. i feel so bad. and i don't want him back. and i just want to hear what i want to hear, just so for 5minutes i can feel fine about everything. but everything is not fine. i'm on myspace and i see this builltein called "if i died" so i'm reading them to him and have him answer these questions and all of a sudden i start CRYING. and everything gets really hard to say. and i don't know why i'm crying. and i'm shaking. and i am scared. and i don't know why i called. but i wish i wouldn't've. and i need a hug. one with open arms and smells good, warm and comforting. i want real things and not bullshit.
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another