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I really don't like being dumped.
at all.
particularly not when I already have a wicked cold the day after my birthday.
and when the reason is because he still "likes me but it doesn't feel right and he figures better to end it now before things get out of hand" etc...
i just got a little sicker.
and jeff is way too nice to me. i feel like a bitch.
and i feel like a loser who somehow can't even keep a relationship from being awkward.
and i feel like an idiot for thinking i could get someone who's only flaw i can find is poor spelling.
i think tonight calls for Moulin Rouge.
Hopefully going to Nova Scotia tommorow, as long as Karol can cover for me. Maybe I can find a pirate to replace my hippie. Who isn't mine anymore. Ew.
Does this mean I give him back his cds and book after vacation?
Does this mean I have to talk to him again? Maybe he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. Because I honestly dont' believe he still likes me. Especially not when he used phrases like "you're a cool girl". Maybe I won't have to see him in the hallways anymore, or at my locker. Or in the pro. Stupid fucking blueberry snapple. And izzes with too many good flavors for me to choose from quickly. And me not having any chapstick that morning.
I feel like shit.
And I'm starting to cry which is really unexpected because I didn't think I would be upset, since I had all day to think about this possibility.
Douchebag.
edit: and i don't know about prom anymore. I'm assuming I'm not going to his.
I'm getting better at thinking of things to dislike about him though. But I don't understand why this bothers me so much! It wasn't even a month...ugh.
bleh.
this bites.
but friends help a lot.
mary bashed the shit out of him and it made me happier. :)
at all.
particularly not when I already have a wicked cold the day after my birthday.
and when the reason is because he still "likes me but it doesn't feel right and he figures better to end it now before things get out of hand" etc...
i just got a little sicker.
and jeff is way too nice to me. i feel like a bitch.
and i feel like a loser who somehow can't even keep a relationship from being awkward.
and i feel like an idiot for thinking i could get someone who's only flaw i can find is poor spelling.
i think tonight calls for Moulin Rouge.
Hopefully going to Nova Scotia tommorow, as long as Karol can cover for me. Maybe I can find a pirate to replace my hippie. Who isn't mine anymore. Ew.
Does this mean I give him back his cds and book after vacation?
Does this mean I have to talk to him again? Maybe he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. Because I honestly dont' believe he still likes me. Especially not when he used phrases like "you're a cool girl". Maybe I won't have to see him in the hallways anymore, or at my locker. Or in the pro. Stupid fucking blueberry snapple. And izzes with too many good flavors for me to choose from quickly. And me not having any chapstick that morning.
I feel like shit.
And I'm starting to cry which is really unexpected because I didn't think I would be upset, since I had all day to think about this possibility.
Douchebag.
edit: and i don't know about prom anymore. I'm assuming I'm not going to his.
I'm getting better at thinking of things to dislike about him though. But I don't understand why this bothers me so much! It wasn't even a month...ugh.
bleh.
this bites.
but friends help a lot.
mary bashed the shit out of him and it made me happier. :)