Graaargh. ^.^
I'm in one of those places where I can't seem to do anything. There's too much in my head, and I need to get off my ass and take a walk or ride my bike to clear it if I want to either be able to do anything productive or even sleep. The only problem is that it's currently raining. It doesn't sound like much, but it's cold, too. And I'm still sick, though I'm a bit better.
In other news...I can swallow without pain! It feels so, so good to swallow. I want to never forget how good it feels to swallow. And I can talk normally now. And I feel almost well. ^.^
I'm seriously annoyed about school. I've missed a lot of it, I'm not doing as well as I should be, and none of my teachers have responded to the messages I sent them explaining my absence.
And yeah, I made a lot of blanket generalizations in my last post. Politely ignore them. I tend to be very level-headed until something ticks me off about something in particular and then I need to rant about it and get that out of my system. It's a very nice way of venting. Basically, I think I have this big control system set up, in my head. I don't get all overly emotional about anything (unless said emotions are good ones, like happiness.) This allows me to analyze stuff objectively. Shit hits the fan and I don't get depressed. My brain works overtime, trying to solve the problem. Then I'll build up enough of the stored-away emotion and experience it all at once. Sadness, anger, panic. Occasionally, I have lost control totally. This has always left me in tears for no reason at all, just an overflowing of pent-up emotion. I think, over the years, I've set up the store and release system I mentioned earlier, so that I'll rarely, if ever, have such explosions.
So yeah, when I'm venting, my brain disposes with logic and technicalities and political correctness and it just goes. Not all suburbs are like what I've mentioned, and not all suburban people are irritating. It was probably mostly that lady. ^.^
I'm going to go put on my coat and see if I can go outside. If not, I'll never get to sleep.
EDIT: Okay...
Interesting. I have just gotten back from my walk and shall add an addendum to this LJ post. And I shall call it...
"Wait. What?"
So I went outside. It was cold, but not rainy any more (thank God.) I stood for a moment on my porch looking up at the sky, because the clouds were moving really fast. And I mean really fast, travelling due west. So I walked down my driveway to the sidewalk to get a better view and the weirdest thing happened: as I turned to look northward, I swear I saw a thin streak of light travel north and vanish behind a cloud. It wasn't a helecopter or a plane, since the clouds were moving too fast to obscure anything travelling in a straight line for long. No, it was definitely what pieces of rock look like burning up in the atmosphere. So then I walked to the convenience store near my house, bought a fifty-cent bag of peanuts, and came back. This is seriously the weirdest night (and day) I've had in a while. I'm not saying that the clouds or the meteor are omens or anything. They're just weird. Oh well; now I can get to sleep. The walk and these peanuts are just what I needed. Good night.
In other news...I can swallow without pain! It feels so, so good to swallow. I want to never forget how good it feels to swallow. And I can talk normally now. And I feel almost well. ^.^
I'm seriously annoyed about school. I've missed a lot of it, I'm not doing as well as I should be, and none of my teachers have responded to the messages I sent them explaining my absence.
And yeah, I made a lot of blanket generalizations in my last post. Politely ignore them. I tend to be very level-headed until something ticks me off about something in particular and then I need to rant about it and get that out of my system. It's a very nice way of venting. Basically, I think I have this big control system set up, in my head. I don't get all overly emotional about anything (unless said emotions are good ones, like happiness.) This allows me to analyze stuff objectively. Shit hits the fan and I don't get depressed. My brain works overtime, trying to solve the problem. Then I'll build up enough of the stored-away emotion and experience it all at once. Sadness, anger, panic. Occasionally, I have lost control totally. This has always left me in tears for no reason at all, just an overflowing of pent-up emotion. I think, over the years, I've set up the store and release system I mentioned earlier, so that I'll rarely, if ever, have such explosions.
So yeah, when I'm venting, my brain disposes with logic and technicalities and political correctness and it just goes. Not all suburbs are like what I've mentioned, and not all suburban people are irritating. It was probably mostly that lady. ^.^
I'm going to go put on my coat and see if I can go outside. If not, I'll never get to sleep.
EDIT: Okay...
Interesting. I have just gotten back from my walk and shall add an addendum to this LJ post. And I shall call it...
"Wait. What?"
So I went outside. It was cold, but not rainy any more (thank God.) I stood for a moment on my porch looking up at the sky, because the clouds were moving really fast. And I mean really fast, travelling due west. So I walked down my driveway to the sidewalk to get a better view and the weirdest thing happened: as I turned to look northward, I swear I saw a thin streak of light travel north and vanish behind a cloud. It wasn't a helecopter or a plane, since the clouds were moving too fast to obscure anything travelling in a straight line for long. No, it was definitely what pieces of rock look like burning up in the atmosphere. So then I walked to the convenience store near my house, bought a fifty-cent bag of peanuts, and came back. This is seriously the weirdest night (and day) I've had in a while. I'm not saying that the clouds or the meteor are omens or anything. They're just weird. Oh well; now I can get to sleep. The walk and these peanuts are just what I needed. Good night.