I dont know why I put myself through such things
Today I saw both Shrek 2 and the Stepford wives-no comment.
I have been feeling rather depressed today. I dont know why. It might be because I'm leaving to Brazil, but that should make me happy. Maybe its because I'm leaving my family and not going to live with them anymore next year-but that should make me happy. I dont know anything. Maybe I will be happy once I reach Brazil and it might just be the anxiety I always feel before I travel. I dont mind when I am traveling on a plane but its before I get on the plane that I feel nervous.
Whatever- I love my mom. Her birthday was today. She turned 44. We bought Matrix- Revolutions for her because she loves the Matrix. I hate it and I wont watch it for her. I bought it with a lot of hesitation but I love my mom and thats one thing she has been wanting to see.
Then we painted the entrance a light pink color and we got rid of the coat rack and put all the coats in the closet. Then we put a small table at the entrance and we are going to get a painting to put above the table. We have a picture of us and flowers on the table. It looks cute- better than before.
Sarah's family is sooo nice....
So much to do so little time b4 I leave tomorrow....
I want to marry Richard Feynman-ugh why couldnt be alive today and young so I could speak to him. SO incredibly intelligent- my new idol.