Crybaby whining? You decide...

[nightwind69]

I dunno...I've been thinking about the issue a lot this last week or so and...I just feel like I don't really belong in Transformers fandom anymore. I seem to see things totally differently than everyone else seems to see them these days, which is likely my own fault because I've made it all too much my own, in a sense. The end result is that there

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[silverrose14]

I have a few buddies who have been going through similar feelings lately, as have I. In fact, I have a buddy, whom pretty much the only thing I have in common with is Megatron being our favorite character. It's still a problem though because our interpretation of him is 180 degrees opposite so we can't even talk about him really.

I'm also with you in that I don't keep up with the toys and comics. And I do get a bit irritated when buddies show me this stuff because they know I don't really care. I see the occasional collector's item I want, but leave the rest alone. I also don't get into any of the series beyond Beast Wars.

I don't think you're being selfish or any of the other things you mentioned. I think most fans go through this on occasion. Sometimes you just get burned out on some of the stuff you see that you don't agree with and need a break. It took me about ten years to burn out on Star Trek. I didn't think that would ever happen, but it did. I still love the show and watch it casually, but I don't think I'd feel compelled to drive all the way to Houston for the next convention or whatever.

About fic writing: I can understand the frustration with that. I didn't write much for a while because I didn't think anyone really cared. I have friends that follow my fics; and a few friends that won't touch them with a forty foot poll. :P Personally, I don't think I'd write if I didn't mean to share. It just seems pointless to me to write something just to have it sit on the comp; but then I've been told one should create for the sake of creation, but I don't know...

Anyway, before this gets too long, I understand where you're coming from and hope that you're able to sort it all out. Sometimes time and space are the best things.

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[nightwind69]

Personally, I don't think I'd write if I didn't mean to share. It just seems pointless to me to write something just to have it sit on the comp; but then I've been told one should create for the sake of creation, but I don't know...

Well, see, that's the thing. Writing is more or less in my blood. I've been doing it in some form or another for...well, 36 years now. It's therapeutic, it's relaxing, it's something that takes me away from everything else happening in my life. At times, it has been a crutch. So yes, I will write something even if I don't share it.

So, it comes down to whether or not I simply want to share it. If I share, unless it's something funny and fluffy and completely inconsequential, I have to have the mental energy to discuss and, perhaps, defend it. And that is what I feel like I lack at the moment. I just don't really care. I feel like saying, "You like this? Great. You don't like this? Great. Whatever. Just leave me alone." Not exactly the best attitude to have.

So yeah, to me that's one sign that I need to take about a thousand steps away from the fandom at this point in time. There are other signs, too, like I said, but that's a biggie. Hopefully it will indeed all be sorted out. If not...Well, it's not the first fandom I've ever wholesale left (That would be Star Trek for me, too.), and it probably won't be the last...