Is nothing sacred anymore?
First of all, marriage is a fucking joke.
Secondly, my dad is a complete and utter asshole.
He's gone back to Trinidad today and when we dropped him off at the airport, my mother told me that she asked him if he felt guilty about leaving us with no means to support ourselves financially. Guess what the bastard told her?
No.
No he doesn't feel guilty.
Well fuck you, Dad. Fuck you six ways from Sunday!
My mom isn't the same since she almost died last year. She's older now and she's also fragile. I mean, she's still able to walk around and take care of herself, but I can tell she's not the same. I can't leave her. I need to find work somehow where I can work from home and keep an eye on her. Especially while my dad is away. I can't believe he told her that shit. I can't believe he actually feels that way. Man, I can't understand how someone can just do that and still sleep well at night.
Right now I'm unemployed. Right now I'm using my unemployment to help my mom out with bills and stuff. But when that runs out? What if I don't find a job by then? I need to be able to take care of her! Goddamn him for leaving her high and dry while he goes off to fucking find himself! To fix up a house off in the fucking wilderness instead of taking care of his wife.
His wife that almost died.
How can you love someone and hate them at the same time? Seriously. Because that's the way I feel right now.
I fucking hate him. Hate him for doing this to my mother.
I am worried about her. She seems depressed and I am fearful of even leaving her alone in the living room by herself b/c I'm worried she'll do something stupid. If my mom tries to harm herself I swear I'll never forgive him. Ever.
I am so mad I don't know whether to cry or throw things. Ugh.
~NS
Secondly, my dad is a complete and utter asshole.
He's gone back to Trinidad today and when we dropped him off at the airport, my mother told me that she asked him if he felt guilty about leaving us with no means to support ourselves financially. Guess what the bastard told her?
No.
No he doesn't feel guilty.
Well fuck you, Dad. Fuck you six ways from Sunday!
My mom isn't the same since she almost died last year. She's older now and she's also fragile. I mean, she's still able to walk around and take care of herself, but I can tell she's not the same. I can't leave her. I need to find work somehow where I can work from home and keep an eye on her. Especially while my dad is away. I can't believe he told her that shit. I can't believe he actually feels that way. Man, I can't understand how someone can just do that and still sleep well at night.
Right now I'm unemployed. Right now I'm using my unemployment to help my mom out with bills and stuff. But when that runs out? What if I don't find a job by then? I need to be able to take care of her! Goddamn him for leaving her high and dry while he goes off to fucking find himself! To fix up a house off in the fucking wilderness instead of taking care of his wife.
His wife that almost died.
How can you love someone and hate them at the same time? Seriously. Because that's the way I feel right now.
I fucking hate him. Hate him for doing this to my mother.
I am worried about her. She seems depressed and I am fearful of even leaving her alone in the living room by herself b/c I'm worried she'll do something stupid. If my mom tries to harm herself I swear I'll never forgive him. Ever.
I am so mad I don't know whether to cry or throw things. Ugh.
~NS