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i think im either insane... or something...
anyone have any ideas of what could be wrong? or is it me...
Nightshade117A (5:43:41 PM): Um Keeley?
(5:43:45 PM): yes
Nightshade117A (5:44:12 PM): Im.. im a little scared
did you ever have thoughts that you didnt really want to think, but still happened, ever told yourself something, but couldnt stop thinking something else?
5:44:23 PM): yeah
(5:44:32 PM): whats it about
Nightshade117A (5:44:35 PM): ..what is it? what does it happen?
(5:44:48 PM): no, not all the time
(5:44:56 PM): most of the time its just in your head
Nightshade117A (5:45:30 PM): its about... well
Religion
i pray to God
but part of me is telling me i worship satan
i keep thinking it, but i keep praying...
(5:45:49 PM): well then
(5:45:56 PM): why do you feel your worshiping satan
Nightshade117A (5:46:07 PM): ... i dont know
cause im scared, i dont want to...
Nightshade117A (5:46:50 PM): this probably goes bavck to something grandma said to me
like... is the devil working inside you?
they were talking about a book where the guy sold his soul
mentally
"i sell my sou
NO, No i dont
i never would
yes i am, i am now"
(5:47:36 PM): HUM
(5:47:52 PM): have you done anything that you think you sinned
Nightshade117A (5:48:43 PM): ... asidef rom.... well
ok... masturbation... (has since stopped... interesting story there) downloading music (am not sure if is wrong), lying, lust... thinking about all this...
(5:49:00 PM): ah
(5:49:06 PM): yeah
Nightshade117A (5:49:19 PM): i was reading a lot of entertainment pages that had to do with supernatural stuff... i was scared id believe that... and when that happens.. you almiost kind of do...
it works a lot like that in most circumstances... either i want to keep thinking it so it happens again, or its obsessive compulsive or something... but its basically now... do i worship God... or satan...
im scared... really scared...
anyone have any ideas of what could be wrong? or is it me...
Nightshade117A (5:43:41 PM): Um Keeley?
(5:43:45 PM): yes
Nightshade117A (5:44:12 PM): Im.. im a little scared
did you ever have thoughts that you didnt really want to think, but still happened, ever told yourself something, but couldnt stop thinking something else?
5:44:23 PM): yeah
(5:44:32 PM): whats it about
Nightshade117A (5:44:35 PM): ..what is it? what does it happen?
(5:44:48 PM): no, not all the time
(5:44:56 PM): most of the time its just in your head
Nightshade117A (5:45:30 PM): its about... well
Religion
i pray to God
but part of me is telling me i worship satan
i keep thinking it, but i keep praying...
(5:45:49 PM): well then
(5:45:56 PM): why do you feel your worshiping satan
Nightshade117A (5:46:07 PM): ... i dont know
cause im scared, i dont want to...
Nightshade117A (5:46:50 PM): this probably goes bavck to something grandma said to me
like... is the devil working inside you?
they were talking about a book where the guy sold his soul
mentally
"i sell my sou
NO, No i dont
i never would
yes i am, i am now"
(5:47:36 PM): HUM
(5:47:52 PM): have you done anything that you think you sinned
Nightshade117A (5:48:43 PM): ... asidef rom.... well
ok... masturbation... (has since stopped... interesting story there) downloading music (am not sure if is wrong), lying, lust... thinking about all this...
(5:49:00 PM): ah
(5:49:06 PM): yeah
Nightshade117A (5:49:19 PM): i was reading a lot of entertainment pages that had to do with supernatural stuff... i was scared id believe that... and when that happens.. you almiost kind of do...
it works a lot like that in most circumstances... either i want to keep thinking it so it happens again, or its obsessive compulsive or something... but its basically now... do i worship God... or satan...
im scared... really scared...