i don't feel that this is how life should be

[nightsfog]

Is it weird that I spend several hours at a time just lying in bed and thinking?
They aren't even useful or deep thoughts.
I make up stories about my characters.
I think about my dreams and possibly make stories about them.
I think about video games I'm playing or books I'm reading.
Or I don't really think about anything.

I've been sleeping as much as I possibly can lately. A good twelve hours just doesn't seem like enough. Being awake is boring. It may be true that sleep is a waste of time, but it's as good an entertainment as any.

I had a dream that I was a man and I raped a fairy, and then one of us fell in love with the other. I think it might have been her, but I'm not sure.
Then I had a dream that I was a fairy who fell in love with a human man with long, pale hair, and I think we'd had sex. But I was betrothed to another fairy, a boy with brown hair. We were on our way to his land, when some mean humans with guns kidnapped us, and when we went into this giant cabinet with water in the bottom that was used to travel, I saw that my human lover and a blonde human woman were there as well.
Er, neither dream's sex was at all portrayed, but I knew it'd happened all the same.
And I had another dream before those, but I don't remember it anymore.