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turn on's turn off's
these are in no paticular order of how important they are they are just important
turn on's
1. belly buttons
2. big beautiful eye's
3. fun to talk to/be around
4. loving
5. Caring
6. listens AND understands
7. good kisser
8. shy/not shy about herself
9. smart
10. likes to take pictures
turn off's
1. rude
2. self centered
3. boring
4. flirty
5. drugs (the bad ones.)
6. bitchy
7. not artsy/ doesn't like art
8. cheats
9. swearing
10. too many tattoo's/piercings
sound like you? i hope so.
today was alright. matt is woring with me and kenji now. blah it will have good and bad days. whatev. school was alright, not worth the drive. i'm starting a journal for painting (my teacher wants me to) to write feelings and idea's in. i have a feeling i will have more fun with the journal than the painting. i hate having to paint the way she wants me to. i do multimedia art not signle substance studio art. that stuff is boring. the people in the classes are just like high school people but grown up and in the real world. they say stupid shit and do stupid shit. the painting 203 people are tuck up and full of themselves while the painting 201 and 202 people are just listening and not talking. i swear if they play some music i don't want to hear i'm walking out of the class. bad music kills creativity. i'm not saying there musics bad i just don't like everything. blah school is so expensive. i hate having parents with money, it's never made anything easey for me. i've allways had to buy my own shit and now that school is here i get no finacial aid. whatever money is money is comes and goes there's more.
so shit happened with me and leanne. i think she hates me or something. it stresses the shit out of me when this stuff happens and i think about it way to much. i fucked up and told the wrong person. for some reason he told a little boy who has alot of freinds who like to gossip and there it goes. my fault. thats why i don't talk about what goes on with me and leanne anymore unless people already know. we were freinds up until a few days ago. i haven't talked to her really since then. i hope she is ok. i just want to be freinds, and to get hugs from her once and awhile cause she gives awesome hugs when she wants too, oh and she's amazing to not talk to but listen to she seems confident in what she says and that kinda makes me feel comfortable when she talks. if that makes sense. she has a boy freind who kinda creeps me out. but she thinks he's sincere and i'm happy 4 her... /jealous. this is stuff i geuss i want her to read. and i know she reads these things of mine. i hate the fact that it sounds like i'm trying to butter her up or something. to tell the truth i just want our freind ship to either end or get better. because i can't take not knowing where i stand.
love does crazy shit to people. have i been i love i beleive so. enough to get married? i don't know. i think i have extremely warped veiws. i think i have depression problems i have problems. leanne told me i'm some weird word she learned in psychology. i'm in psychology now to and i'm learning stuff. it's true.
i like someone but no piont, i don't want anything.
i talked to cody the other night and chanty about the times they did acid and austin. austin said he didn't like it much cody said it was tight. i'm gonna go with what cody said. i'm gonna try and get chanty to hook me up maybe? i don't know but cody did three hits and the stuff he describe wasn't the complete effect i want and he did three hits. i'm gonna do 4 or 5. probably 4. i'm gonna do this cause i have allways wanted to. it will hepl with the painting class i think. so i geuss it's a school study thing haha.
i have no one to talk to right now about this stuff so i wrote it in here i wont quit using this even though it would be cool if i could. i'm a nerd. whatever goodnight
these are in no paticular order of how important they are they are just important
turn on's
1. belly buttons
2. big beautiful eye's
3. fun to talk to/be around
4. loving
5. Caring
6. listens AND understands
7. good kisser
8. shy/not shy about herself
9. smart
10. likes to take pictures
turn off's
1. rude
2. self centered
3. boring
4. flirty
5. drugs (the bad ones.)
6. bitchy
7. not artsy/ doesn't like art
8. cheats
9. swearing
10. too many tattoo's/piercings
sound like you? i hope so.
today was alright. matt is woring with me and kenji now. blah it will have good and bad days. whatev. school was alright, not worth the drive. i'm starting a journal for painting (my teacher wants me to) to write feelings and idea's in. i have a feeling i will have more fun with the journal than the painting. i hate having to paint the way she wants me to. i do multimedia art not signle substance studio art. that stuff is boring. the people in the classes are just like high school people but grown up and in the real world. they say stupid shit and do stupid shit. the painting 203 people are tuck up and full of themselves while the painting 201 and 202 people are just listening and not talking. i swear if they play some music i don't want to hear i'm walking out of the class. bad music kills creativity. i'm not saying there musics bad i just don't like everything. blah school is so expensive. i hate having parents with money, it's never made anything easey for me. i've allways had to buy my own shit and now that school is here i get no finacial aid. whatever money is money is comes and goes there's more.
so shit happened with me and leanne. i think she hates me or something. it stresses the shit out of me when this stuff happens and i think about it way to much. i fucked up and told the wrong person. for some reason he told a little boy who has alot of freinds who like to gossip and there it goes. my fault. thats why i don't talk about what goes on with me and leanne anymore unless people already know. we were freinds up until a few days ago. i haven't talked to her really since then. i hope she is ok. i just want to be freinds, and to get hugs from her once and awhile cause she gives awesome hugs when she wants too, oh and she's amazing to not talk to but listen to she seems confident in what she says and that kinda makes me feel comfortable when she talks. if that makes sense. she has a boy freind who kinda creeps me out. but she thinks he's sincere and i'm happy 4 her... /jealous. this is stuff i geuss i want her to read. and i know she reads these things of mine. i hate the fact that it sounds like i'm trying to butter her up or something. to tell the truth i just want our freind ship to either end or get better. because i can't take not knowing where i stand.
love does crazy shit to people. have i been i love i beleive so. enough to get married? i don't know. i think i have extremely warped veiws. i think i have depression problems i have problems. leanne told me i'm some weird word she learned in psychology. i'm in psychology now to and i'm learning stuff. it's true.
i like someone but no piont, i don't want anything.
i talked to cody the other night and chanty about the times they did acid and austin. austin said he didn't like it much cody said it was tight. i'm gonna go with what cody said. i'm gonna try and get chanty to hook me up maybe? i don't know but cody did three hits and the stuff he describe wasn't the complete effect i want and he did three hits. i'm gonna do 4 or 5. probably 4. i'm gonna do this cause i have allways wanted to. it will hepl with the painting class i think. so i geuss it's a school study thing haha.
i have no one to talk to right now about this stuff so i wrote it in here i wont quit using this even though it would be cool if i could. i'm a nerd. whatever goodnight