Random Shite, Tech, MM, Insanity
Well the last wee while has been fun. Randomness has ruled my life for the last few months. First random job at the venue, random nikita living with me, random-ness with Suzy, Lauracet & Pete. Have had soo much hilarity with all my friends. Work is goin really well have had a few hitches but it should all be fine from now on. Dont wanna talk about mick, havent decided how I feel about him. Started tech today, went well but slightly stoned. We got to draw 2 quite cute guys and orla thinks that our tutors gay. Hes alright but not my type. I know I'm off 1 night this week but I dont know which. I'll go round at normal work time on friday to check. I hope suzies ok theres been some home stuff and I worry so much about her. Home life is fucked up. Mum is treating us really badly, i think shes havin some mental problems. Adjusting to me havin this kind of life was hard and the fact that I didnt ask for her help when i had problems and the fact that I dont need her now must really hurt but theres nothing i can do. I wish I could walk away from all the voices goin round my head but I cant. Oh well I can deal with it, I can deal with it. I want the blade; but I wont take it. That part of me died. That part of me haunts me but its a ghost. A ghost I can live with. Thanks to all who care for me and help me through. It means a lot. Well I have to go now so I'll update again soon. Hopefully suitably non-depressed. Lattaz