Epic Stupidity.
Hello LiveJournal.. its been a long time since ive wrote in this thing without a boatload of FFXI or game related nonsense.
Seeing as 6/7 players on NGs2 are just fucking awful. i wont even bother getting into that, Instead im going to address what i came here for.
So today has been a really boring friday. Liz (Erizabesu) Is going to boston for a 2~3 week internship. (bummer... NML SAD)
but seeing as today has been a boring day i logged into myspace. (i do this once every 2~5 months.) So i logged into (8) unread messages.
(7) of them were from "Jessica Vansteenberg" (The Ex who cheated) (1) message was SPAM. i read the messages. and i guess in a lapse of judgement i decided to ask what she wanted and why was she bothering me again. This was stupid of me yes, and the resulting headache i now feel is a reminder of why i should just ignore anything i get from her. I think i will delete my myspace eventually, As it doesnt look like Trisha wants to pay my 300 bux back. i should drag her ass to court. but i really would rather just move on with my life.
Anywho i dont think some people understand just how truly dumb my ex is. So ive decided to POST (with LJ cuts of course) the ENTIRE conversation.
IF you want to pick at how i word things or my train(s) of thought go for it. I just felt like people are probably tired of me talking bad about her and think im "mean" and or "lying" so i figure... I can just post the convo and its proof enough..
Oh and before i end this. i just want to say. i dont make claims to be the best, nicest, smartest, etc person in the world. i do however think i am a good person, a good man, a good boyfriend, etc to whomever im with and to my real friends.
(WARNING. U dont HAVE to read all of whats said between myself & the moron, u can scroll down to the bottom the important comment is highlighted in bold)
Me to Jessica Vansteenberg (330) 715-7028 - mobile
7/16/10 6:41 PM 58 seconds ago
Inbox
Me: So why are you sending me myspace messages? 3:55 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I want u 3:57 PM
Me: Lol thats a funny joke. 3:58 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Its true im not joking im ready to settle down an have a family an i want that with u 3:59 PM (Ohhh That's NIGHT!!!)
Me: um. you have a kid. a kid that has a father. thus making what you just said impossible. 4:00 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Hes not around an she doesnt have a father im both her parents we can try to have kids i wana get maried in 2 years 4:02 PM (dude has like 4 or 5 kids iirc) and she still.. WILLINGLY cheated with him. nice logic?)
Jessica Vansteenberg: Never mind 4:05 PM
Me: lol you're still the same person. only thinking about yourself... as usual.. 4:07 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I dont like being single i want u in my life im not asking u to be a father to my child 4:07 PM (This is contradicted numerous times)
Jessica Vansteenberg: U hate me 4:08 PM
Me: like i said. you're still the same person. only thinking about yourself. how on earth would you make up for all the bullshit you've done? 4:09 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I would try never mind im waisting ur time ill find the right person one day 4:11 PM
Me: lol right. nice job avoiding the question. and u wonder why i dont say much to you. 4:12 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: First of all im not thinking about myself im thinking whats right for my daughter she needs a father figure in her life cause her dad aint around an i w 4:15 PM (Wait wut? didnt she say she wasnt asking me to be the father?)
Jessica Vansteenberg: ant to get married so bad i no i blew it before im tired of bein depressed all the time 4:15 PM
Me: all thats your fault. u decided to have sex with the guy. YOU decided to think he was better than me. YOU decided to make your life and your childs like what it is. and again. you are only thinkin about yourself. 4:17 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Fine mabe i am but im tryin to tell u i have changed i dont cheat anymore im geting mu own place in 4 months im going to school to be a altra sound teck 4:20 PM (ive heard this all before. 3 years of this. and its still being said)
Jessica Vansteenberg: im tryin to get my life straightin out i need to loose weight i hate myself 4:20 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Ya i got wht i wanted a child but i thought her father would be a family that didnt work i made my mistake an i learned from it im never going to hurt a 4:25 PM (The 4+ kids with other women made u think he was gonna be a family with you? REALLY? you're that dumb?)
Jessica Vansteenberg: nother person again as long as i live cause i felt the pain of being hurt an it mad me sad 4:25 PM
Me: lol yeah. you talk all that high powered bullshit. but who really believes you? i can see your myspace, all the more reason to believe you havent nor will u ever change. you're attempting to put on a front. and im not the type to be wooshed. 4:31 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Im not puting on anything im real about wht i say 4:32 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I let my profile to be seen bye anyone cause i dont have nothing to hide 4:36 PM
Me: lol uh huh. just like you havent been saying you want to do this and that for years. its 3 years later. what do u have to show for all the things uve said u wanted to do? nothing at all. 4:36 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: asnt thinking an i didnt no what i wanted to go to school for cause i didnt have no money to pay for it welfar puting me thru school 4:40 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Cause i was going to get my own spot last year in kent but i turned that down to live with a man that didnt work out i shoulda got that aprtment but i w 4:44 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Its ok NIGHT if u want me to go away i will 4:52 PM (Edited out my birth name.. HATE seeing / hearing it... )
Me: uh huh. it seems like you're never thinking, and when u are its only about yourself. thus contradicting the statement of " i have changed " 4:53 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: No i dont now im thinking whts best for my daughter an i 4:54 PM
Me: yeah u talk about you going away, but yet its hasnt happened in 3 years. one min u act like a crazed child the next min u want to be an adult. after all the shit you talk, and all the idiotic shit u spew out like the last time i spoke to u, u called me a mommas boy. why the fuck would i want anything to do with you? 4:54 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: It dont even mater anymore im so hurt 4:57 PM
Me: lmao @ you're so hurt. aint nobody done a damn thing to you. 4:58 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Not from u 5:02 PM
Me: your text doesnt make any sense. aint nobody done shit to you. your life is a product of your stupidity. everything that happens is your fault because 98% of the shit is caused by you. regardless of if u fathom it or not. 5:05 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Im sorry for even bothiring u i knew u would never wana be around or with me ima go now we can be friends 5:05 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I know it is but i just got realy hurt 5:06 PM
Me: lol your texts arent making any sense. "i just got really hurt" NO ONE HAS DONE ANYTHING TO YOU, HOW THE HELL ARE YOU HURT. 5:07 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Ya they have u dont no shit u havent been in my life 5:09 PM
Me: be around you? all you want is sex. whats the point? you dont have your own place. how can i "be around you" your logic fails. 5:09 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I no im a nobody 5:10 PM
Me: your texts make absolutely no sense. The end. 5:11 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: An i dont just want sex i want a relationship 5:13 PM
Me: right. you of all people should even speak of a relationship, cheater. 5:19 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: But im not like that anymore i got cheated on bye my baby dad an i was good to him 5:20 PM
Me: bullshit. u tried to juggle both him and myself. dont be stupid. u dont know how to be good to anyone other then yourself. you are SELFISH. 5:23 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I am not when i left u alone we was together for a year an i gave him my love i never cheated on him he did me wrong i guess wht goes around comes aroun 5:26 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: d an i got played cause i played u 5:26 PM
Me: you're stupid and lying. you didnt leave me, i left you. i got tired of seeing numbers in your phone. i got tired of u trying to juggle two men. what the fuck is wrong with you? YOU were trying to be with him AND ME at the SAME FUCKING TIME. u forget YOU had him call the police because I was sending HIM THE SHIT YOU SENT ME? 5:29 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Ya i remember 5:30 PM
Me: then get your facts straight. you pretty much made the life for your child and you what it is today. its all your doing. dont blame others for your failures. 5:34 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Fine its all my fault 5:34 PM
Me: Duh. the first step is acceptance. 5:35 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Whts that 5:37 PM
Me: nothing. i still dont get why i would wanna see you or what u even have to offer me. 5:46 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Thats wht darian told me wht i have to offer him i dont no wht that means 5:47 PM
Me: why dont u go ask him then. im not trying to be in the middle of this never ending bullshit spiral. 5:49 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Were not to gether anymore weve been brokin up we dont speake to eachother 5:51 PM
Me: uh huh. and why exactly should i believe you? you've lied numerous times before. 5:52 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Cause im telling the truth he moved on with his life with his new women 5:57 PM
Me: lol so u just got stuck with a kid. coulda swore someone said something like this would happen. i wonder who. 5:58 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: U did u were right about everything 6:01 PM
Me: lol. amusing. 6:02 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I am heard headed i dont lisen just do 6:03 PM
Me: uh huh. why are you misspelling things i already. know. tell me something i DONT know. and its not hard headed. its sheer stupidity. u havent a clue. 6:04 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: No i dont ur smarter than me 6:05 PM
Me: Obviously. so what is the reason i should "see you" for? 6:10 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Cause i wana hang out with u like the old days i miss ur sey body 6:12 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: U were the best man i ever had u were good to me an i fucked that up 6:15 PM (They be like.. OHHH THATS NIGHT!)
Me: We're done here. i see no reason to oblige you by seeing you face to face. Do me a favor and stop messaging my blank myspace. i rarely pay that shit attention. and u can also be a decent person and not message me here. its pointless. Enjoy. 6:29 PM (Uh oh.. Somebody got dismissed)
Jessica Vansteenberg: K nice talkn to u 6:30 PM
Me: The feeling isnt mutual. 6:31 PM (So MEAN)
Jessica Vansteenberg: K stop textin me i get it 6:32 PM
Me: stfu toolbelt. all u have to do is not reply to a text u recieve and they will stop. YOU are the one who messaged me on myspace or u would of never recieved a text to begin with. u have nothing to offer me. 6:37 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Ok 6:38 PM
Me: idiot... 6:39 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: U cant be my friend 6:41 PM
Me: man. im not going thru this shit again. just shut up. dont respond "ok" hell dont reply at all. just act like u didnt get a text or something and just be quiet. 6:42 PM
Seeing as 6/7 players on NGs2 are just fucking awful. i wont even bother getting into that, Instead im going to address what i came here for.
So today has been a really boring friday. Liz (Erizabesu) Is going to boston for a 2~3 week internship. (bummer... NML SAD)
but seeing as today has been a boring day i logged into myspace. (i do this once every 2~5 months.) So i logged into (8) unread messages.
(7) of them were from "Jessica Vansteenberg" (The Ex who cheated) (1) message was SPAM. i read the messages. and i guess in a lapse of judgement i decided to ask what she wanted and why was she bothering me again. This was stupid of me yes, and the resulting headache i now feel is a reminder of why i should just ignore anything i get from her. I think i will delete my myspace eventually, As it doesnt look like Trisha wants to pay my 300 bux back. i should drag her ass to court. but i really would rather just move on with my life.
Anywho i dont think some people understand just how truly dumb my ex is. So ive decided to POST (with LJ cuts of course) the ENTIRE conversation.
IF you want to pick at how i word things or my train(s) of thought go for it. I just felt like people are probably tired of me talking bad about her and think im "mean" and or "lying" so i figure... I can just post the convo and its proof enough..
Oh and before i end this. i just want to say. i dont make claims to be the best, nicest, smartest, etc person in the world. i do however think i am a good person, a good man, a good boyfriend, etc to whomever im with and to my real friends.
(WARNING. U dont HAVE to read all of whats said between myself & the moron, u can scroll down to the bottom the important comment is highlighted in bold)
Me to Jessica Vansteenberg (330) 715-7028 - mobile
7/16/10 6:41 PM 58 seconds ago
Inbox
Me: So why are you sending me myspace messages? 3:55 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I want u 3:57 PM
Me: Lol thats a funny joke. 3:58 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Its true im not joking im ready to settle down an have a family an i want that with u 3:59 PM (Ohhh That's NIGHT!!!)
Me: um. you have a kid. a kid that has a father. thus making what you just said impossible. 4:00 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Hes not around an she doesnt have a father im both her parents we can try to have kids i wana get maried in 2 years 4:02 PM (dude has like 4 or 5 kids iirc) and she still.. WILLINGLY cheated with him. nice logic?)
Jessica Vansteenberg: Never mind 4:05 PM
Me: lol you're still the same person. only thinking about yourself... as usual.. 4:07 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I dont like being single i want u in my life im not asking u to be a father to my child 4:07 PM (This is contradicted numerous times)
Jessica Vansteenberg: U hate me 4:08 PM
Me: like i said. you're still the same person. only thinking about yourself. how on earth would you make up for all the bullshit you've done? 4:09 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I would try never mind im waisting ur time ill find the right person one day 4:11 PM
Me: lol right. nice job avoiding the question. and u wonder why i dont say much to you. 4:12 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: First of all im not thinking about myself im thinking whats right for my daughter she needs a father figure in her life cause her dad aint around an i w 4:15 PM (Wait wut? didnt she say she wasnt asking me to be the father?)
Jessica Vansteenberg: ant to get married so bad i no i blew it before im tired of bein depressed all the time 4:15 PM
Me: all thats your fault. u decided to have sex with the guy. YOU decided to think he was better than me. YOU decided to make your life and your childs like what it is. and again. you are only thinkin about yourself. 4:17 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Fine mabe i am but im tryin to tell u i have changed i dont cheat anymore im geting mu own place in 4 months im going to school to be a altra sound teck 4:20 PM (ive heard this all before. 3 years of this. and its still being said)
Jessica Vansteenberg: im tryin to get my life straightin out i need to loose weight i hate myself 4:20 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Ya i got wht i wanted a child but i thought her father would be a family that didnt work i made my mistake an i learned from it im never going to hurt a 4:25 PM (The 4+ kids with other women made u think he was gonna be a family with you? REALLY? you're that dumb?)
Jessica Vansteenberg: nother person again as long as i live cause i felt the pain of being hurt an it mad me sad 4:25 PM
Me: lol yeah. you talk all that high powered bullshit. but who really believes you? i can see your myspace, all the more reason to believe you havent nor will u ever change. you're attempting to put on a front. and im not the type to be wooshed. 4:31 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Im not puting on anything im real about wht i say 4:32 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I let my profile to be seen bye anyone cause i dont have nothing to hide 4:36 PM
Me: lol uh huh. just like you havent been saying you want to do this and that for years. its 3 years later. what do u have to show for all the things uve said u wanted to do? nothing at all. 4:36 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: asnt thinking an i didnt no what i wanted to go to school for cause i didnt have no money to pay for it welfar puting me thru school 4:40 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Cause i was going to get my own spot last year in kent but i turned that down to live with a man that didnt work out i shoulda got that aprtment but i w 4:44 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Its ok NIGHT if u want me to go away i will 4:52 PM (Edited out my birth name.. HATE seeing / hearing it... )
Me: uh huh. it seems like you're never thinking, and when u are its only about yourself. thus contradicting the statement of " i have changed " 4:53 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: No i dont now im thinking whts best for my daughter an i 4:54 PM
Me: yeah u talk about you going away, but yet its hasnt happened in 3 years. one min u act like a crazed child the next min u want to be an adult. after all the shit you talk, and all the idiotic shit u spew out like the last time i spoke to u, u called me a mommas boy. why the fuck would i want anything to do with you? 4:54 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: It dont even mater anymore im so hurt 4:57 PM
Me: lmao @ you're so hurt. aint nobody done a damn thing to you. 4:58 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Not from u 5:02 PM
Me: your text doesnt make any sense. aint nobody done shit to you. your life is a product of your stupidity. everything that happens is your fault because 98% of the shit is caused by you. regardless of if u fathom it or not. 5:05 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Im sorry for even bothiring u i knew u would never wana be around or with me ima go now we can be friends 5:05 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I know it is but i just got realy hurt 5:06 PM
Me: lol your texts arent making any sense. "i just got really hurt" NO ONE HAS DONE ANYTHING TO YOU, HOW THE HELL ARE YOU HURT. 5:07 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Ya they have u dont no shit u havent been in my life 5:09 PM
Me: be around you? all you want is sex. whats the point? you dont have your own place. how can i "be around you" your logic fails. 5:09 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I no im a nobody 5:10 PM
Me: your texts make absolutely no sense. The end. 5:11 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: An i dont just want sex i want a relationship 5:13 PM
Me: right. you of all people should even speak of a relationship, cheater. 5:19 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: But im not like that anymore i got cheated on bye my baby dad an i was good to him 5:20 PM
Me: bullshit. u tried to juggle both him and myself. dont be stupid. u dont know how to be good to anyone other then yourself. you are SELFISH. 5:23 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I am not when i left u alone we was together for a year an i gave him my love i never cheated on him he did me wrong i guess wht goes around comes aroun 5:26 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: d an i got played cause i played u 5:26 PM
Me: you're stupid and lying. you didnt leave me, i left you. i got tired of seeing numbers in your phone. i got tired of u trying to juggle two men. what the fuck is wrong with you? YOU were trying to be with him AND ME at the SAME FUCKING TIME. u forget YOU had him call the police because I was sending HIM THE SHIT YOU SENT ME? 5:29 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Ya i remember 5:30 PM
Me: then get your facts straight. you pretty much made the life for your child and you what it is today. its all your doing. dont blame others for your failures. 5:34 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Fine its all my fault 5:34 PM
Me: Duh. the first step is acceptance. 5:35 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Whts that 5:37 PM
Me: nothing. i still dont get why i would wanna see you or what u even have to offer me. 5:46 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Thats wht darian told me wht i have to offer him i dont no wht that means 5:47 PM
Me: why dont u go ask him then. im not trying to be in the middle of this never ending bullshit spiral. 5:49 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Were not to gether anymore weve been brokin up we dont speake to eachother 5:51 PM
Me: uh huh. and why exactly should i believe you? you've lied numerous times before. 5:52 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Cause im telling the truth he moved on with his life with his new women 5:57 PM
Me: lol so u just got stuck with a kid. coulda swore someone said something like this would happen. i wonder who. 5:58 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: U did u were right about everything 6:01 PM
Me: lol. amusing. 6:02 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: I am heard headed i dont lisen just do 6:03 PM
Me: uh huh. why are you misspelling things i already. know. tell me something i DONT know. and its not hard headed. its sheer stupidity. u havent a clue. 6:04 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: No i dont ur smarter than me 6:05 PM
Me: Obviously. so what is the reason i should "see you" for? 6:10 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Cause i wana hang out with u like the old days i miss ur sey body 6:12 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: U were the best man i ever had u were good to me an i fucked that up 6:15 PM (They be like.. OHHH THATS NIGHT!)
Me: We're done here. i see no reason to oblige you by seeing you face to face. Do me a favor and stop messaging my blank myspace. i rarely pay that shit attention. and u can also be a decent person and not message me here. its pointless. Enjoy. 6:29 PM (Uh oh.. Somebody got dismissed)
Jessica Vansteenberg: K nice talkn to u 6:30 PM
Me: The feeling isnt mutual. 6:31 PM (So MEAN)
Jessica Vansteenberg: K stop textin me i get it 6:32 PM
Me: stfu toolbelt. all u have to do is not reply to a text u recieve and they will stop. YOU are the one who messaged me on myspace or u would of never recieved a text to begin with. u have nothing to offer me. 6:37 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: Ok 6:38 PM
Me: idiot... 6:39 PM
Jessica Vansteenberg: U cant be my friend 6:41 PM
Me: man. im not going thru this shit again. just shut up. dont respond "ok" hell dont reply at all. just act like u didnt get a text or something and just be quiet. 6:42 PM