Dec 05, 2003 00:34
I feel so alone lately, I haven’t been talking to anyone because of all the work I have and it isn't helping me feel better. I feel so pissed and depressed, fucking hell! I have so many feeling built up in me and they just won't come out, I know I have great friends who listen, if only I could get the words out, but every time I'm about to, my mouth opens and then before the first word rolls off my hunched hill of a tongue it feels as if some cold knife blade was harshly slide into my mouth and sliced off my tongue. So I'm left with a gaping hole in my face and a blank stare.
If feel I'm growing apart from some of my closest friends, ones who I want to keep forever and it's scaring the shit outta me.
And as families gather together, I can't help but ask...
"so america where is your christ?
he's inside your box of electric light"