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Didn't work on pillows tonight. Was too busy being upset over something else. I'm going to an immense sleepover party tomorrow night and plan to finish these hats tomorrow. Since the foam pokes are done, the ribbon and veil add take about 5 minutes for each hat so expect the auctions to go up in the afternoon.
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I hate breast cancer ribbon fabric bolts, I hate people talking about cancer when I have to cut for them, I hate the damn lady who threw cancer trivia in my face, I hate how it's getting to me. I go to work to get away from family to not hear about cancer, only to have everyone talk about cancer becase of all the new bolts brought in. I don't like to think about how one of my online friends is suffering through a possibility of it, I don't like to think about how any day Ais' grandma is going to pass away because of the cancer in her lungs and I know she won't handle it well, I don't like to think about my sister's cancer. I don't like to think June is coming up slowly, I don't like remembering my graduation. I know Katie tried to hide the news from me on the biggest day of my life two years ago, but it's impossible not associating her cancer news with my diploma. I hate how each day I panic when the phone rings because of the possible change in it's status. I know June will suck in general for me, but every hour will be endless. I want July to be here, I want my sister to be better, and I need to go buy some candles. If I hadn't gotten into the Pokemon collecting after I heard the news I don't think I would have made it.
I didn't sew tonight because I really can't look at fabric right now. Not tonight. I'm going to bed and hoping I'll forget about everything tomorrow. :C