Mar 17, 2004 01:19
Things have been eactly as I say a little bite of everything..My ear is better.My brother came to visit w/o notice.The blades of rage that I have for him, are growning greatly for him.James started to call,but then stopped?I got to see Rachel get her tongue and eye browe pierced.Then she does so well she goes for the nipps fore the next day or so.She calls crying mad,confused; saying that she has gotten fired from her job.Rachel waits to tell me that james and her had a long discussion about me.I freak.Asking a million questions over and over.She tells me he also likes this stripper.Damn..But he thinks that I have little interest in him.But he likes me alot.I like James to much of every level;a relationship and sex would be awsome. My roomie thinks she has all this stuff to do;in actuality its her doing her school work in a timely manner.I try to suggest this.I get ripped a new hole.Ray emails me.He wants to get me to promote for him.Yes!Ray tells James to call me; he doesn't.I am now going to va to see them all in concert.Work at cashiering has gotten tense,for the fact I got the balls up and told ron the head of the whole store that I was still having issues w/ them schuduling me rite.Now Ron and the rest of top management love me.So he ripps my bosses a new hole.Thus tension at cashiering.U know all I want rite now, is James. Even if he just called to say whatz uppp!It would make my nite.Oh, damons' sillyness finnaly got ahold of me.He knows I worry if he doesnt at least go hi on a email.So He gave me the number.I shall be the soul and shoulder for him this weekend.He is out on his own.He'll need me.James; I think I know now.He needs release of things old and happening.He needs me to take the sledge hammer to his walls. And let him out.I think he knows this; someway he does.He knows that maybe I am the sledge hammer for his life and it scares him.It scares me,too,just a bit.but,as said bites little ones.Maybe I am wrong, but when am I?This he has been placed before me for a reason.awwwwht...RED