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well, i went home last night. My grandfather passed away. it was my real fathers, father. It took a lot of debating on if i even should have gone because i havent seen that side of the family since i was like 10? and i havent seen my father since i was like 6. but in the end, i ended up going. I figured it was better to show my respect, he was my grandfather.
So me and my stepfather went. And, i saw my father for the first time in 16 years. i didnt speak to him, i have no desire too. he was simply a sperm donor. my stepfather is my dad, he raised me. but it was still weird seeing him. i didnt really know what to think. it was kind of awkward.
then i drove back here.
It turns out Anthony might not be coming up now, he hasnt gotten his new car, they keep telling me, a few more days, and finally its got to the point where he cant take it anymore. it started off with 2 weeks, that turned into 3 weeks and 3 days, and now its, "i dont know". its getting to be aggravating. poor anthony has been waiting so long for this car, and they just keep yanking his chain.
it makes me sad that he might not come up, but i know its not his fault. i just wish i had the money to go down instead, it would make it easier on him. but i am broke and unless i get this loan before friday, i wont be going anywhere for a while. (the loan lady called me today and asked me to fax her my most recent paystub) so now i gotta find a fax mechaine on campus, or somewhere to fax it. anyone know where i can do that?
anyways..im procrastinating doing anymore studying. im never gonna remember everything ive studied tonight, i just cant seem to be able to retain any information. damn, i wish i was just smart.
So me and my stepfather went. And, i saw my father for the first time in 16 years. i didnt speak to him, i have no desire too. he was simply a sperm donor. my stepfather is my dad, he raised me. but it was still weird seeing him. i didnt really know what to think. it was kind of awkward.
then i drove back here.
It turns out Anthony might not be coming up now, he hasnt gotten his new car, they keep telling me, a few more days, and finally its got to the point where he cant take it anymore. it started off with 2 weeks, that turned into 3 weeks and 3 days, and now its, "i dont know". its getting to be aggravating. poor anthony has been waiting so long for this car, and they just keep yanking his chain.
it makes me sad that he might not come up, but i know its not his fault. i just wish i had the money to go down instead, it would make it easier on him. but i am broke and unless i get this loan before friday, i wont be going anywhere for a while. (the loan lady called me today and asked me to fax her my most recent paystub) so now i gotta find a fax mechaine on campus, or somewhere to fax it. anyone know where i can do that?
anyways..im procrastinating doing anymore studying. im never gonna remember everything ive studied tonight, i just cant seem to be able to retain any information. damn, i wish i was just smart.