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i found him. the man i couldn't let go of. i'd say he ruined me again, but that would have been a huge lie because i was ruined when he found me, or vice versa.
five months later, i am in a good place.
i am getting over the other one. the friend. because i got tired of holding my heart in my hands just to have the door closed in my face. love is not enough when it stays unspoken. i know that i am partly to blame for the unspoken romantic part of it, but the friendship, that was on him. i can't read minds. i can't rely on hearing things from other people. he could never tell me, so i am letting go.
in other news, i have some relatively healthy people in my life, i've stopped drinking/smoking for the most part and i am moving to new york in february. yes, i am aware that i will freeze my butt off. i am also awre that this is what i am supposed to do, for once in my life.
five months later, i am in a good place.
i am getting over the other one. the friend. because i got tired of holding my heart in my hands just to have the door closed in my face. love is not enough when it stays unspoken. i know that i am partly to blame for the unspoken romantic part of it, but the friendship, that was on him. i can't read minds. i can't rely on hearing things from other people. he could never tell me, so i am letting go.
in other news, i have some relatively healthy people in my life, i've stopped drinking/smoking for the most part and i am moving to new york in february. yes, i am aware that i will freeze my butt off. i am also awre that this is what i am supposed to do, for once in my life.