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Oh fuck has this week been the biggest drag ever. Megan is like not hanging out with me, some one else wont talk to me, no one I want to hang out with wants to. My wrist hurts super bad, and I can’t sleep. Every time I go to hang out with Megan she has another excuse as to why she can’t and when we do she is so fucking depressed and sulky that I just leave because she doesn’t want anyone around. My phone never rings wit ha fun call anymore. Last nights graduation was depressing. I just thought of how all the people at pats school I have know since middle school and I had to graduate wit ha bunch of people I barley knew or cared about. I found where I would have been in line I found were my friend Brady who accidentally killed him self would be, I found where Kane would be if he didn’t fail, I looked for Quinton’s name but remembered some one told me he was killed last year. It was so depressing and after wards I wondered the field talking to people I used to know and know well and ask for change from every day and they would have money but they’d lie about it but it but I never blamed them I asked for money every day. Claudia’s family loves pat and treats him as if he is one of them; it used to be like that in my house. He used to sleep behind me, id turn on the record player and he'd turn out the lights. Or id climb the bunk bed while he fixed his fort beneath me and called our dog zoey into bed and then we'd talk. Or when we wanted to be apart he was in the room next to me, it wasn’t real that we wanted to be apart its just the fact that he smells bad and I was tired of hurting my feet climbing those stupid bunk bed bars.
At least now when we see each other it’s a party. We found a girl who has the key to this abandoned gas station and we are gonna go in and take a bunch of food or leave the doors open so bums can eat candy and soda. This would be kinda wrong but the owner and his wife got divorced and he closed the gas station to pretend he had no income and then he fled the country. When was the last time a bum had the joy of eating some candy for free? Or drinking a nice warm soda? I hung out with my ex girlfriend Adria and its hard to be with her cause I cant even look her in the face, I don’t know why. We had a small dohnut store adventure involving crack cocaine. She has the perfect characteristics of every girl I have ever really wanted to date so it saddens me to see tem all. They are all messy, messy messy messy. Messy Jessie, Laurens horrible luck of food to mouth ending up all over the table and her room being super messy, Adrias messy room, and Tami omg I don’t even think Tami really has a room anymore its just trash, books, cloths, books, shoes, and doors. Almost all have been weird depressed or just weird shy. There are other things like the way she talks. Me and Tami have had the best hang out sessions since me over reacting at the faint. We just sat on her couch looking at the year book and writing boobs on stuff drawing hearts over people we hearted and it was just like how it used to be and it was fun. Katie’s present arrived yesterday all i have to do is go pay for it.
Tonight is pats graduation party, me Tami and Amy are going then mark should be picking Tami up after the bands played and hopefully Amy stays Buddha and doesn't get drunk because if there’s one thing I hate its drunk girls.
Tamara A Russell: he came by yesterday on his way to graduation. and he brought me pretty flowers, then i threw up. then he left.
Brandon T McMinn: yay!
Tamara A Russell: thanks for thebloughhhhhpuuh
Tamara A Russell: (me throwing up)
Tamara A Russell: wootwoot
Brandon T McMinn: i got it even thougt i first read it as blowjob
Tamara A Russell: hahahahahha
Brandon T McMinn: like mabey mark wrote on the flowers "thanks for the blowjob"
Tamara A Russell: haha
Tamara A Russell: hahah
At least now when we see each other it’s a party. We found a girl who has the key to this abandoned gas station and we are gonna go in and take a bunch of food or leave the doors open so bums can eat candy and soda. This would be kinda wrong but the owner and his wife got divorced and he closed the gas station to pretend he had no income and then he fled the country. When was the last time a bum had the joy of eating some candy for free? Or drinking a nice warm soda? I hung out with my ex girlfriend Adria and its hard to be with her cause I cant even look her in the face, I don’t know why. We had a small dohnut store adventure involving crack cocaine. She has the perfect characteristics of every girl I have ever really wanted to date so it saddens me to see tem all. They are all messy, messy messy messy. Messy Jessie, Laurens horrible luck of food to mouth ending up all over the table and her room being super messy, Adrias messy room, and Tami omg I don’t even think Tami really has a room anymore its just trash, books, cloths, books, shoes, and doors. Almost all have been weird depressed or just weird shy. There are other things like the way she talks. Me and Tami have had the best hang out sessions since me over reacting at the faint. We just sat on her couch looking at the year book and writing boobs on stuff drawing hearts over people we hearted and it was just like how it used to be and it was fun. Katie’s present arrived yesterday all i have to do is go pay for it.
Tonight is pats graduation party, me Tami and Amy are going then mark should be picking Tami up after the bands played and hopefully Amy stays Buddha and doesn't get drunk because if there’s one thing I hate its drunk girls.
Tamara A Russell: he came by yesterday on his way to graduation. and he brought me pretty flowers, then i threw up. then he left.
Brandon T McMinn: yay!
Tamara A Russell: thanks for thebloughhhhhpuuh
Tamara A Russell: (me throwing up)
Tamara A Russell: wootwoot
Brandon T McMinn: i got it even thougt i first read it as blowjob
Tamara A Russell: hahahahahha
Brandon T McMinn: like mabey mark wrote on the flowers "thanks for the blowjob"
Tamara A Russell: haha
Tamara A Russell: hahah