First class
To say that Friday changed my life is an understatement. Single ol' me. It shouldn't have affected me so deeply. I've never had someone I've loved so much that I've wanted to marry them. I've always had fantasies of getting married but it wasn't an issue that was directly in front of me.
Yet I cried. In public even. On the bus. And it changed everything for me.
I woke up early today. Like 5 AM early. And I feel relaxed and...confident. And alive. I've always had trouble with self-esteem, self-image... Today, they're still there, but wayyy in the background. Manageable.
Second-class citizenship...was it affecting me so deeply? Did having the Supreme Court (at least a majority on the bench) say "hey, you're a real person, and the 14th amendment really does protect that fact"--does it mean that much to me? Was it reinforcing some measure of internalized homophobia?
I'm not going to question it too much. All I know is that this has given me a new lease on life. And I'm going to run with it