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Okay so this is my entry about maybe the most amazing days in my life and a very crappy day at work full of crap.
Fedderingen. A very small village near St. Peter-Ording or Husum. We went there with the September Group One and at first sight we were all kinda like "OMG WTH" but actually it was a very nice place. Huge house with many bed and bathrooms, a huge greenhouse, a nice garden... everything! And gosh the food was amazing. Jürgen is the best house keeper ever!
Marjan and Günther, our groupleaders, are such nice, funny and spontaneous people. I love you two! >o<
We had many many nice creative tasks like building a marble run, but we also talked a lot about our different experiences and difficult sutiations at work since we're all working at different places.
On wednesday we went to Husum to do a wheelchair trip. This was a very difficult experience for me. I felt so bad when I saw someone who's actually disabled.. but it was also a good thing because it was the first time that i realised how few shops, banks and cafes are handicapped accessible. It is almost impossible to go buying clothes Oo
the day before we watched a documentary about a blind man climbing the mount everest with blind children from Tibet. After the day at Husum I was even more impressed by that.
In the evening we had a lot of free time and somehow got drunk every night XD but we were one hell of a group it was like a real family. I so missed that.. we're all so different, but everyone's tolerant and open. Of course there were some people I especially took to my heart like Yvonnie-Bonnie, Josie, Russe and Meike.
Btw, Meike, a very nice girl, is the drummer of Perlen an die Säue which is a funny coincidence I think XD
This week was so awesome and I will never forget this wonderful time with you guys. Please let's repeat it, I so love you >o<
When I came home I was so sad because I won't see my girls for such a long time but I met Yannik at the underground station and he cheered me up ^^
On saturday I had the perfect day with Denni! We haven't seen each other for, I dunno, weeks? Months?
First we made a Mango-cream but we failed XD well, it was tasty anyway ^^;;
Actually we wanted to see "Wüstenblume" but the schedule was being changed so we switched to "Die nackte Wahrheit" which was nice too.
Afterwards we went went to buy alcohol @Pennsen although there was no Faszination. -.- We also stopped at the Sushi restaurant and it was sooo delicious *o* and not expensive!
And here comes the embarrassing part with getting drunk and going to the Speicher XD but all in all it was such a good day, I really enjoyed it. Thank you so much... Matt Damon <3
Now the bad stuff... Today was my first day at work since the 2nd of october. there was one Patient room, and I don't know what was wrong with them but they had to pee and crap the whole day. Maybe 5 bowls of crap /person? Hello??? Of course I was the one to go there... -.- and because I'm so lucky I had to put clean linnens and everything one maybe 4 or 5 beds with really fat people in there who weren't able to move. All by myself. Yay. And one woman urinated on me and my pants which totally made my day.
Okay, that was the crap part, here's the sad part now:
There's a man alone in one room and he should have been discharged while I was in Fedderingen but they decided to let him die in there. So all we do is wait for him to stop breathing. This morning when I went in there with Alice to wash him I just wanted to turn around for one moment. He lay in there, so old, with small stuffed animals in his arms that were smiling.
Alice told I don't even have to try to give him food. He's going to die, hopefully soon. Or sth like that...
While I was at the hospital it was okay, I stayed away from his room (he's not able to call us or sth...). But when I got home I told my father and I just couldn't bear the thought of him being all alone in that room with his stuffed animals, no family and noone even bothered that he gets proper food.
I can't stop crying when I think about him and I just hope that he won't die under my watch.
Right I can't let go of the thought that he had a life, with ups and downs and that he'll never tell his story every again. He will die in there alone and noone cares...
For me, this is even more impossible because Alice is like a robot concerning these situations. Of course, it's her job and she's doing it a little longer. Maybe she's used to it, maybe that's how she can deal with it.
But I've never been confronted with death like this before, not even when my grandmothers died. It's so hard...
I just had to write about this topic because I can't stand it any longer to keep it all inside.
I'm sorry if this made someome unhappy, I know some of you have problems with this topic, too...
I'll go to bed now, hope I can stop crying and that he won't die tomorrow.
Fedderingen. A very small village near St. Peter-Ording or Husum. We went there with the September Group One and at first sight we were all kinda like "OMG WTH" but actually it was a very nice place. Huge house with many bed and bathrooms, a huge greenhouse, a nice garden... everything! And gosh the food was amazing. Jürgen is the best house keeper ever!
Marjan and Günther, our groupleaders, are such nice, funny and spontaneous people. I love you two! >o<
We had many many nice creative tasks like building a marble run, but we also talked a lot about our different experiences and difficult sutiations at work since we're all working at different places.
On wednesday we went to Husum to do a wheelchair trip. This was a very difficult experience for me. I felt so bad when I saw someone who's actually disabled.. but it was also a good thing because it was the first time that i realised how few shops, banks and cafes are handicapped accessible. It is almost impossible to go buying clothes Oo
the day before we watched a documentary about a blind man climbing the mount everest with blind children from Tibet. After the day at Husum I was even more impressed by that.
In the evening we had a lot of free time and somehow got drunk every night XD but we were one hell of a group it was like a real family. I so missed that.. we're all so different, but everyone's tolerant and open. Of course there were some people I especially took to my heart like Yvonnie-Bonnie, Josie, Russe and Meike.
Btw, Meike, a very nice girl, is the drummer of Perlen an die Säue which is a funny coincidence I think XD
This week was so awesome and I will never forget this wonderful time with you guys. Please let's repeat it, I so love you >o<
When I came home I was so sad because I won't see my girls for such a long time but I met Yannik at the underground station and he cheered me up ^^
On saturday I had the perfect day with Denni! We haven't seen each other for, I dunno, weeks? Months?
First we made a Mango-cream but we failed XD well, it was tasty anyway ^^;;
Actually we wanted to see "Wüstenblume" but the schedule was being changed so we switched to "Die nackte Wahrheit" which was nice too.
Afterwards we went went to buy alcohol @Pennsen although there was no Faszination. -.- We also stopped at the Sushi restaurant and it was sooo delicious *o* and not expensive!
And here comes the embarrassing part with getting drunk and going to the Speicher XD but all in all it was such a good day, I really enjoyed it. Thank you so much... Matt Damon <3
Now the bad stuff... Today was my first day at work since the 2nd of october. there was one Patient room, and I don't know what was wrong with them but they had to pee and crap the whole day. Maybe 5 bowls of crap /person? Hello??? Of course I was the one to go there... -.- and because I'm so lucky I had to put clean linnens and everything one maybe 4 or 5 beds with really fat people in there who weren't able to move. All by myself. Yay. And one woman urinated on me and my pants which totally made my day.
Okay, that was the crap part, here's the sad part now:
There's a man alone in one room and he should have been discharged while I was in Fedderingen but they decided to let him die in there. So all we do is wait for him to stop breathing. This morning when I went in there with Alice to wash him I just wanted to turn around for one moment. He lay in there, so old, with small stuffed animals in his arms that were smiling.
Alice told I don't even have to try to give him food. He's going to die, hopefully soon. Or sth like that...
While I was at the hospital it was okay, I stayed away from his room (he's not able to call us or sth...). But when I got home I told my father and I just couldn't bear the thought of him being all alone in that room with his stuffed animals, no family and noone even bothered that he gets proper food.
I can't stop crying when I think about him and I just hope that he won't die under my watch.
Right I can't let go of the thought that he had a life, with ups and downs and that he'll never tell his story every again. He will die in there alone and noone cares...
For me, this is even more impossible because Alice is like a robot concerning these situations. Of course, it's her job and she's doing it a little longer. Maybe she's used to it, maybe that's how she can deal with it.
But I've never been confronted with death like this before, not even when my grandmothers died. It's so hard...
I just had to write about this topic because I can't stand it any longer to keep it all inside.
I'm sorry if this made someome unhappy, I know some of you have problems with this topic, too...
I'll go to bed now, hope I can stop crying and that he won't die tomorrow.