I Want To Die

[nightcookie]

I want to die, I don't know if I actually wana die, but it feels like I am dieing anyways, for better or for worse. I HURT SO BAD!! I don't know what to do. No body here is gonna help me. No one is going to save me from myself, especially not myself. I doubt that will ever happen. I feel so empty, on fire, like I'm having my insides crushed by a

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[nightcookie]

Your such a dumbass, this is umm..my journal? You know what a journal is for? Oh yeah, to write about how a certain someone feels about their life and the people around them. I don't feel sorry for myself, because I am smart enough to know that there are people out there that actually have a reason to be unhappy. My parents bitch out eachother, aren't very loving, sometimes forget about me, I didn't have friends for some reason, well because I was scared to make friends. I thought I would lose them in the end, so what was the use. I was too quiet and shy, but all that crap is no reason for me to feel the way I do. If I was an asshole who obviously never felt the way I do, then I think I'd react the same way. By the way, who says I don't take responsibility for my actions? I admit it when I'm wrong or did something wrong. I can find many faults with myself, many, many, but I am not lazy. I work hard for what I have, including my friends. I feel so lonely all the time. Sometimes it feels like there's nobody anywhere, it FEELS that way. My fellow employees are my friends, a few people from highschool are my friends, alot of wonderful, understanding people online are my friends and the lady who let me babysit her neice is my friend, as well as her niece. I'm not ungreatful at all, so, ummm, get a life other than bashing people over the net. What do you think your'e doing by starting shit with me anyways? Are you trying to put me down, intemidate me? Well, it's not working, because you are just another one of those many people in the world who ARE selfish, aren't able to be open minded, or empathetic. I don't let people like you drag me down, because it's the few good people in this world that I pay attention to. Hey, but thanks for the comment ;) ...