My Stupidity
I popped too many sleeping pills last night or yesterday morning most likely, finally passed out at 7:00AM. Around 2:00PM one of my managers called and left a message that I was supposed to work 1:00-9:00PM. I thought since I was late for work, I might as well sleep some more. I got around and called my work around 6:30PM, so it wouldn't be a "no call, no show" and asked if they needed me to come in even though I was supposed to work 1:00-9:00PM, so I obviously fucked that up. They said that they had enough people working the night shift, so I just sat at home stuffing my face, planning to sit inside to eat the rest of the stuff in the house, almost everything is gone now, just a few grapes. I've been binging for almost a week, hard core *sigh*. I hate myself... Around 7:30PM my night shift manager called me, because one of my other coworkers felt sick. It pissed me off, because I just ordered some fucking pizza, I wanted to eat my pizza, and I did. I planned on leaving around 8:00PM, getting there at 8:30PM, yeah right, as if I was going to live up to any of my expectations. I kept eating pizza and fudge untill around 8:15. My car isn't supposed to be used, cuz something or other is wrong with it, my mom said I'd overheat it, then it would be dead forevers and I'd be sad and stuck at home. I need my car :( ...I had to call my mom at her work. I asked the reseptionist for my mom, and she said my mom no longer worked there!! I was like WHAT THE FUCK? I just said ok, thanks, hung up, and just drove my car over to my mom's work. She obviously worked there, so yeah, that reseptionist needs an update. I traded her vehicles, her gas tank was almost empty, so I decided I would stop and get gas on the other side of town, which is closer to the turnpike/highway. Put in $11.00 in the tank, hurried up to the cashier to pay for the gas and get to work by 8:30PM. Well, I pulled the money out of my wallet, and "Oh shit, I only have $3.00." I poured all the cash out of my wallet, hoping I had $8:00 in change, ha ha, I don't think I could fit that much change in my wallet. I almost started bawling. I was freakon out "Im, so so sorry!!""I'll get the money from my house, I promise!!". I had to write down my license info, the decription of my mom's truck, and my name and number. I drove all the way back to the damn house to grab $10:00 out of my hidden stash. Went all the way back to the gas station, apoligised again, then raced down to the highway, knowing that I would not be at work by 8:30, it was already 8:37PM, but the least I could be there was 9:00PM, so I still had a shot if I drove between 80mph-97mph all the way there *the speed limit is 70mph, my work is 30 miles away*, trying to avoid all the slow people that just love to get in the way when you've got to get somewhere fast. I got to work at 9:00PM, wuppee!! Worked, went home, and here I am. I'm such a loser, a fat one, stupid, stupid, stupid...