Love Eternally
Title: Love Eternally
Pairing: Taemin/Jonghyun
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance, tragedy, horror, fantasy
Summary: He's searching, searching for something. But what? He ends up in a unfamiliar place, ethereal and beautiful, but cold, with people that have the same air about them. What is he doing there?
A/N: really random fic idea, based off of the MV and lyrics of MIA by IU <3 XD I've been writing darker fics lately, though they have happy endings? hehe~ hope you all enjoy! comments are <3
The earth is damp beneath my bare feet as I walk, following the imprints of the many footsteps that I could see in the dirt. The cold and stifling air seems to grip my lungs every time I breathe. Where was I? I couldn't tell; my surroundings were masked in a fog so bad that I could barely see the ground and trees only a few feet around me. I continue walking though, feeling a pull that urges me forward and shows me the way.
I arrive at a small clearing of the forest I was walking through, and the fog seems to lighten. But I wish it hadn't, because I was then able to see the unnatural people, spirits, that walked amongst the trees.
I gasp and soon after froze, but it didn't look like they had heard or seen me. They just kept walking around absently like they were as lost as I was. I didn't understand. How had I ended up in this place? What were these people? I couldn't remember anything, and the memories of my life were a blur. I shiver. I'm scared, and lonely, what had happened to me?
Idly I reach upwards and pluck a dead, decaying flower from one of the leafless trees. One of the only signs of something familiar. Right afterwards, however, I feel like there are eyes on me, so I spin around, my heart pounding in my chest. But there are only those spirits wandering about, and none of them seem to be paying any attention to me at all. Turning back the way I had been going, the flower drops from my hand and my heart stops in my chest when I come face-to-face with one of the spirits.
I don't move, stay as still as possible hoping that it would just keep moving on, but it didn't. And then suddenly it moves towards me swiftly and I let out a terrified scream. I continue to scream, the sound achingly loud in the smothering quiet of my surroundings, as I stumble backwards, running away from it.
My heart is skipping when the spirit stops, but it is still watching me with empty eyes. Then it reaches out faster than I could see to grab my arm tightly, and spoke without opening it's mouth, the sound drifting into my mind like a thought.
“Who... Don't belong... You...”
I try to pull away, another scream building in my throat, and then it happened. Something pulls at my heart, my soul, and the memories came flooding back.
Photographs. Love. You. Fire. Singing. You. Death.
It all came back and I remember why I'm here in this place, I know what it is now; the place souls go when they haven't moved on yet, and I remember that I am there because I am looking for someone. You.
The person I loved more than anything had died, disappeared from my life. And I had fallen asleep that night, dying on the inside from the pain and anguish and the sheer amount that I miss you.
The pull makes me look up into those cold, blank eyes of the spirit, and I full recognition that took my breath away fills me. It couldn't be possible, but I know in my heart that it has to be true.
“Jonghyun..?”
The spirit jerks back, away from me, at the mention of the name that used to belong to it. It is dead, lost forever in this lonely place because it's heart was restless from things unresolved. It clutches it's head, mouth open in a silent yell.
I try to concentrate, to see passed the mask on it's appearance that is stopping my love from showing and being your true self, from being able to remember me. But it shrieks and flees away in the opposite direction, leaving me behind as pain, fresh gashed in my heart re-open. I curl into a ball after dropping to the ground and weep. Rain starts to fall, and soon I am soaked, but I don't move from my cold seat.
“What are you doing here, living one..?”
Jonghyun. Images flood back, and a sob chokes me. The photographs of us, I had burned them, trying to erase the memories and erase the sorrow. I miss you, need you, love you. Why did you have to be taken away?
“You don't belong here... But I will let your wish be granted...”
Cold hands drift and cover my eyes, and for a moment I am blind. The water falling from the sky halts abruptly, and I slowly flutter my lids open once again. The other person is gone, but instead there is an other standing before me.
I can't speak, afraid that by moving or uttering any words I will break this dream or vision or whatever it is. But when I stare up into your friendly eyes, your familiar face, hair, body, it all is just too much. I want to throw myself at you and bury my face in your neck to feel you again and smell your scent, but I settle for standing instead.
You smile a torn smile and speak in a voice like that other spirit; a surreal echo that feels like a thought. “Taemin, you're not supposed to be here you know.” That's all you say, but the longing in your gaze tells me so much.
I know. Of course I know. How could you say something like that to me? All of my feelings well up and spill out in a fresh wave of tears. My heart aches so painfully, the deep wounds and impressions you left make me want to hate you. I burned some of our photographs, your beloved photos that you cherished, and only ended up despising myself afterwards as I sobbed and clutched the remaining ones to my chest.
I can't hate you, I love you, and you love me back. That's what hurts the most, because cruel fate made us separated. I wish it were all a dream, this, your death, so we could be together again. Why can't it be as easy as that? Why is it so hard to wake up?
Your figure blurs as it starts to pour rain again. You back away, and I reach out to you knowing that there is nothing I can do. You smile so lovingly, it's so sad how I fall in love with you all over again, and then are enveloped in light and finally disappear.
I'm trembling horribly like I'm standing on a cliff, looking over the edge. You're gone, and now I must leave knowing all too well that it will be hard going on, living, without you. The difficult hesitation to walk away, but I must trust you, believe in your promises and your love. I don't belong here, not yet, but when it is my turn I know you will be waiting for me in a better place. Because both of us have resolved what has kept us from moving on, and we have accepted everything. We'll be together again, one day.
I blink my eyes and I'm lying in bed in our apartment, warm and dry, safe. I sit up, idly hearing sounds from the other rooms, and then get to my feet to walk to the window. The sun is shining brightly, and when I reach up with a hand I notice that the silver band you used to always wear is around my finger, and a photograph of us with blackened edges is in my palm. On a whim I turn it over and see words written in a familiar scrawl.
'I love you, don't be sad. We'll be with each other one day. For eternity I am yours.'
I look at the picture of you and me and smile.
One day...
A/N: I am like.... in need of more fic ideas XD im in the mood and everything for writing, but I have no idea what to write!!! any ideas would be really appreciated, even if you don't think so XD and I am craving nicer, fluffier fics LOOOOOL I've been writing dark ones lately~
AND don't worry at all about the pairing or anything ~
good news though? I've finished the next chapter of "Wistful Hearts" ^^ and I'm starting another series soon that is AU OnKey~ it's gonna be called "Making Up For Lost Time"~ just thought you guys would wanna know ;D
love you all so muchhhh <3
Pairing: Taemin/Jonghyun
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance, tragedy, horror, fantasy
Summary: He's searching, searching for something. But what? He ends up in a unfamiliar place, ethereal and beautiful, but cold, with people that have the same air about them. What is he doing there?
A/N: really random fic idea, based off of the MV and lyrics of MIA by IU <3 XD I've been writing darker fics lately, though they have happy endings? hehe~ hope you all enjoy! comments are <3
The earth is damp beneath my bare feet as I walk, following the imprints of the many footsteps that I could see in the dirt. The cold and stifling air seems to grip my lungs every time I breathe. Where was I? I couldn't tell; my surroundings were masked in a fog so bad that I could barely see the ground and trees only a few feet around me. I continue walking though, feeling a pull that urges me forward and shows me the way.
I arrive at a small clearing of the forest I was walking through, and the fog seems to lighten. But I wish it hadn't, because I was then able to see the unnatural people, spirits, that walked amongst the trees.
I gasp and soon after froze, but it didn't look like they had heard or seen me. They just kept walking around absently like they were as lost as I was. I didn't understand. How had I ended up in this place? What were these people? I couldn't remember anything, and the memories of my life were a blur. I shiver. I'm scared, and lonely, what had happened to me?
Idly I reach upwards and pluck a dead, decaying flower from one of the leafless trees. One of the only signs of something familiar. Right afterwards, however, I feel like there are eyes on me, so I spin around, my heart pounding in my chest. But there are only those spirits wandering about, and none of them seem to be paying any attention to me at all. Turning back the way I had been going, the flower drops from my hand and my heart stops in my chest when I come face-to-face with one of the spirits.
I don't move, stay as still as possible hoping that it would just keep moving on, but it didn't. And then suddenly it moves towards me swiftly and I let out a terrified scream. I continue to scream, the sound achingly loud in the smothering quiet of my surroundings, as I stumble backwards, running away from it.
My heart is skipping when the spirit stops, but it is still watching me with empty eyes. Then it reaches out faster than I could see to grab my arm tightly, and spoke without opening it's mouth, the sound drifting into my mind like a thought.
“Who... Don't belong... You...”
I try to pull away, another scream building in my throat, and then it happened. Something pulls at my heart, my soul, and the memories came flooding back.
Photographs. Love. You. Fire. Singing. You. Death.
It all came back and I remember why I'm here in this place, I know what it is now; the place souls go when they haven't moved on yet, and I remember that I am there because I am looking for someone. You.
The person I loved more than anything had died, disappeared from my life. And I had fallen asleep that night, dying on the inside from the pain and anguish and the sheer amount that I miss you.
The pull makes me look up into those cold, blank eyes of the spirit, and I full recognition that took my breath away fills me. It couldn't be possible, but I know in my heart that it has to be true.
“Jonghyun..?”
The spirit jerks back, away from me, at the mention of the name that used to belong to it. It is dead, lost forever in this lonely place because it's heart was restless from things unresolved. It clutches it's head, mouth open in a silent yell.
I try to concentrate, to see passed the mask on it's appearance that is stopping my love from showing and being your true self, from being able to remember me. But it shrieks and flees away in the opposite direction, leaving me behind as pain, fresh gashed in my heart re-open. I curl into a ball after dropping to the ground and weep. Rain starts to fall, and soon I am soaked, but I don't move from my cold seat.
“What are you doing here, living one..?”
Jonghyun. Images flood back, and a sob chokes me. The photographs of us, I had burned them, trying to erase the memories and erase the sorrow. I miss you, need you, love you. Why did you have to be taken away?
“You don't belong here... But I will let your wish be granted...”
Cold hands drift and cover my eyes, and for a moment I am blind. The water falling from the sky halts abruptly, and I slowly flutter my lids open once again. The other person is gone, but instead there is an other standing before me.
I can't speak, afraid that by moving or uttering any words I will break this dream or vision or whatever it is. But when I stare up into your friendly eyes, your familiar face, hair, body, it all is just too much. I want to throw myself at you and bury my face in your neck to feel you again and smell your scent, but I settle for standing instead.
You smile a torn smile and speak in a voice like that other spirit; a surreal echo that feels like a thought. “Taemin, you're not supposed to be here you know.” That's all you say, but the longing in your gaze tells me so much.
I know. Of course I know. How could you say something like that to me? All of my feelings well up and spill out in a fresh wave of tears. My heart aches so painfully, the deep wounds and impressions you left make me want to hate you. I burned some of our photographs, your beloved photos that you cherished, and only ended up despising myself afterwards as I sobbed and clutched the remaining ones to my chest.
I can't hate you, I love you, and you love me back. That's what hurts the most, because cruel fate made us separated. I wish it were all a dream, this, your death, so we could be together again. Why can't it be as easy as that? Why is it so hard to wake up?
Your figure blurs as it starts to pour rain again. You back away, and I reach out to you knowing that there is nothing I can do. You smile so lovingly, it's so sad how I fall in love with you all over again, and then are enveloped in light and finally disappear.
I'm trembling horribly like I'm standing on a cliff, looking over the edge. You're gone, and now I must leave knowing all too well that it will be hard going on, living, without you. The difficult hesitation to walk away, but I must trust you, believe in your promises and your love. I don't belong here, not yet, but when it is my turn I know you will be waiting for me in a better place. Because both of us have resolved what has kept us from moving on, and we have accepted everything. We'll be together again, one day.
I blink my eyes and I'm lying in bed in our apartment, warm and dry, safe. I sit up, idly hearing sounds from the other rooms, and then get to my feet to walk to the window. The sun is shining brightly, and when I reach up with a hand I notice that the silver band you used to always wear is around my finger, and a photograph of us with blackened edges is in my palm. On a whim I turn it over and see words written in a familiar scrawl.
'I love you, don't be sad. We'll be with each other one day. For eternity I am yours.'
I look at the picture of you and me and smile.
One day...
A/N: I am like.... in need of more fic ideas XD im in the mood and everything for writing, but I have no idea what to write!!! any ideas would be really appreciated, even if you don't think so XD and I am craving nicer, fluffier fics LOOOOOL I've been writing dark ones lately~
AND don't worry at all about the pairing or anything ~
good news though? I've finished the next chapter of "Wistful Hearts" ^^ and I'm starting another series soon that is AU OnKey~ it's gonna be called "Making Up For Lost Time"~ just thought you guys would wanna know ;D
love you all so muchhhh <3