and in the end, all i have is me
i'm not sure if it's the weather or if it's just the fact that i'm changing, in a more unlikable fashion. whatever the case, i feel if something doesn't happen soon, everyone will be gone. i don't mean to piss everyone off...god knows the last thing i want is a confrontation...but it seems as though all i can do anymore, is anger everyone. i guess it was true when they said back in high school and middle school that once you graduate you'll see what friends you will have in the future and which ones will become less important. you would think after ten years of dealing with someone's bull shit...all their ups and downs...being there for them when no one else was....you would think that they were one of those friends destined to be there until the end. wake up lauren!!! you're wrong again!!! sometimes it's just never good enough. i thought, of all people, my parents would be there for me through the worst of the worst....once again...no luck there...but then...when you're a mistake...a dumbass can you really expect any more? well, just so it's known....no matter what....my friend of a decade, my mother, my father....i will still love you...until the end.
good friends are hard to find. as soon as you think you have someone....they find a flaw in you and they are a friend no more. well...whatever....i gave it all i had. i bent over backwards. if you said jump, i leapt to your feet. when you wanted to be left alone i dissappeared. when you wanted me there, i walked miles to see you. it's sad, really, that it has to end this way...but all good things come to an end i suppose...fare well sweet thing.
i have been told countless times...and I believe it's the best piece of advice i've ever been given.
you can be loved by others, you can be hated by others. others can appreciate all you do, or condemn your every movement. you can go through life being miserable. living on what everyone else says...or you can do what makes YOU and YOURSELF happy because, after all, at the end of the day, when no one else is around to care, who has to look at you but yourself. In the end, all i have is me.
good friends are hard to find. as soon as you think you have someone....they find a flaw in you and they are a friend no more. well...whatever....i gave it all i had. i bent over backwards. if you said jump, i leapt to your feet. when you wanted to be left alone i dissappeared. when you wanted me there, i walked miles to see you. it's sad, really, that it has to end this way...but all good things come to an end i suppose...fare well sweet thing.
i have been told countless times...and I believe it's the best piece of advice i've ever been given.
you can be loved by others, you can be hated by others. others can appreciate all you do, or condemn your every movement. you can go through life being miserable. living on what everyone else says...or you can do what makes YOU and YOURSELF happy because, after all, at the end of the day, when no one else is around to care, who has to look at you but yourself. In the end, all i have is me.