Because I'm the Marshmellow in your smore
and you're the lemon in my tea. kevin, you are absolutely everything to me. i'm sorry that we fought and i'm sorry that i'm a chicken shitt. i need you to know that i can't fight all the time. (this partially came out last night)...i'm still very very weak from fighting with kyle and if we fight like that, what's gonna happen is, i'm gonna give in and i'll just sit at home and cry as aposed to talking things out with you. i love you more than anyone and everything in my life and without you i don't know that i could continue on. i'm sorry i fell asleep on you this morning. i hadn't intended too...you're just so comforting to me...
right, so if it's not obvious by everyone else's blog....kevin and i have been fighting. so i finally got the bawls to talk to him and we worked things out. well, wanke and i hadn't been on the best of terms recently either, but we went over to his house to watch clerks and it turned into another big heart felt talk. i think kevin was upset with me at first, he felt ignored, but for our sake, and mine and wanke's sake...everything had to be put on the table. wanke...i love you...you are one of my best friends and after last night, well, i'm here for you forever if you ever need anything. you still make me laugh like no one in this world.....
omg phil....you had to flap around hooters like a chicken....you rock my world and happee earlee birthday. thank you...i appreciate you dealing with me at the "guys night out"
felicia...i am getting very close to you very quick. as i mentioned last night, i'm scared to death by this, because the last time it happened, i wound up hear broken...actually the last several times it has happened, i've wound up that way. anyways, i want you to know i really care about you a lot and i want to thank you so SO much for being there for me and caring about me when many others weren't. i love you fefe...i really do.
bekah...i need you to know, along with felicia, you are about the only female i trust. i love you with everything in me and i am always and forever going to be here for you. you rock my world bebe and you never fail to put a smile on my face. =P Leehh =D
nick....you're still amazing to me and i miss you lotz. i miss hanging out with you as much as we used to so you're definately mine at least forty percent of this upcoming break...k? k.
mom's talking about not letting me go back to school in the fall because she can't afford to allow me to continue failing all these classes. i understand completely where she's coming from..but i can't work at bob evans the rest of my life >.< if she makes me take the semester off i may make some money and start going to jcc next spring...my problem is i've made to many friends and i don't focus on my work at school, but more my social life so i figure if i go somewhere that i don't know anyone, i'll do better...i dunno...just my brain talking, not my heart.
ok...kyle...i love you, but my heart is with kevin. he really didn't do anything to hurt me, and i don't see him doing anything to hurt me erego...with kevin is where my heart shall remain. however, please know i'm not going anywhere. if you want me to be, i am always going to be your friend....i don't regret anything that has happened thus far, i just need to know that i am going to stay happy....and after last night, with kevin is where i am happiest. i love you and i probably always will...but we have to many issues to work through before i can even consider other things....
kelly, i really care about you a lot...but because of some things that have been said, i'm not sure how much i trust you/respect you anymore. don't be offended. i just believe...you have no room to say anything about anything. i know about you and kent. i know about you and wanke. enough said.
amanda. you are probably the next closest thing i have to a true friend after bekah and felicia. you have been there for me through this whole thing with kyle and i am starting to understand yours and kyle's relationship, and i am cool with it. you two are friends as you and i are friends. and it's good that way because i hear and know both sides thanks to you. you're awesome amanda. don't ever change. i love you lotz.
right. so i just poured my heart out to everyone that still matters to me. i hope i havn't offended anyone or upset anyone, i just...needed to get some things off my chest. i love you all.
Forever and ever,
Lauren Jean
right, so if it's not obvious by everyone else's blog....kevin and i have been fighting. so i finally got the bawls to talk to him and we worked things out. well, wanke and i hadn't been on the best of terms recently either, but we went over to his house to watch clerks and it turned into another big heart felt talk. i think kevin was upset with me at first, he felt ignored, but for our sake, and mine and wanke's sake...everything had to be put on the table. wanke...i love you...you are one of my best friends and after last night, well, i'm here for you forever if you ever need anything. you still make me laugh like no one in this world.....
omg phil....you had to flap around hooters like a chicken....you rock my world and happee earlee birthday. thank you...i appreciate you dealing with me at the "guys night out"
felicia...i am getting very close to you very quick. as i mentioned last night, i'm scared to death by this, because the last time it happened, i wound up hear broken...actually the last several times it has happened, i've wound up that way. anyways, i want you to know i really care about you a lot and i want to thank you so SO much for being there for me and caring about me when many others weren't. i love you fefe...i really do.
bekah...i need you to know, along with felicia, you are about the only female i trust. i love you with everything in me and i am always and forever going to be here for you. you rock my world bebe and you never fail to put a smile on my face. =P Leehh =D
nick....you're still amazing to me and i miss you lotz. i miss hanging out with you as much as we used to so you're definately mine at least forty percent of this upcoming break...k? k.
mom's talking about not letting me go back to school in the fall because she can't afford to allow me to continue failing all these classes. i understand completely where she's coming from..but i can't work at bob evans the rest of my life >.< if she makes me take the semester off i may make some money and start going to jcc next spring...my problem is i've made to many friends and i don't focus on my work at school, but more my social life so i figure if i go somewhere that i don't know anyone, i'll do better...i dunno...just my brain talking, not my heart.
ok...kyle...i love you, but my heart is with kevin. he really didn't do anything to hurt me, and i don't see him doing anything to hurt me erego...with kevin is where my heart shall remain. however, please know i'm not going anywhere. if you want me to be, i am always going to be your friend....i don't regret anything that has happened thus far, i just need to know that i am going to stay happy....and after last night, with kevin is where i am happiest. i love you and i probably always will...but we have to many issues to work through before i can even consider other things....
kelly, i really care about you a lot...but because of some things that have been said, i'm not sure how much i trust you/respect you anymore. don't be offended. i just believe...you have no room to say anything about anything. i know about you and kent. i know about you and wanke. enough said.
amanda. you are probably the next closest thing i have to a true friend after bekah and felicia. you have been there for me through this whole thing with kyle and i am starting to understand yours and kyle's relationship, and i am cool with it. you two are friends as you and i are friends. and it's good that way because i hear and know both sides thanks to you. you're awesome amanda. don't ever change. i love you lotz.
right. so i just poured my heart out to everyone that still matters to me. i hope i havn't offended anyone or upset anyone, i just...needed to get some things off my chest. i love you all.
Forever and ever,
Lauren Jean